ABANDONED

My first memory was one I could not understand

until years later: playing with towering animals

under a palm tree, all around me gentle eyes,

feathery green fronds,

and sticky tidbits of fruit

stuck to cow lips.

The cattle were smelly

and friendly,

just as hungry

for palm fruit

as I was

for milk.

Where did Mamá go?

I was too young for a sense of time,

but somehow I expected to be exiled forever

in that musical tangle of thumping hoofs

and clackety horns, my own wailing voice

adding a flutelike magic

to the noise.