THE HAMPSTEAD HEATH TOAD
For Roger Deakin
It was one of those
beautiful
English summer nights.
The lilac shimmer of silent
lakes.
The whisper of ghost fox
through your heartbeat.
But the toad in the hand
stank real.
Stank through his palpitating
skin.
Stank of fear.
Is the fabled hallucinogenic
touch of toads
just as Macbeth
witnessed
a hypnotising snare
of toxic apparition?
What thrilling doors of perception
open
to the musky ooze
of panting paralysed
terror?
Of course
intoxicated on moonshine
you wanted
and will always want
the toad
to calm down
smell sweet
and give up his phantasmagorical
secrets
generously.
But the toad in the hand
protected himself.
The toad in the hand
stank real.