TWO DAYS LATER a gendarme came to the Leonhardt apartment in Vienna to take Albert’s statement as to the assault charges laid by the Rittmeister.
“You broke his nose,” said the gendarme. “He claims you attacked him unprovoked. What was it about?”
Albert shook his head. “Not unprovoked. He insulted me and the woman I was with.”
“How? What did he say?”
“I won’t repeat it. He was being arrogant. It was an unpardonable insult and just one too many.”
The gendarme, an older man in piped grey trousers and a grey tunic, sat studying him. “You should state your reason,” he said in a fatherly way. “In the report. What did he say?”
“I’ll repeat it in court, if it comes to that. If I absolutely have to.”
Cecilia, who had sent a student into the far bedroom to warm up, brought coffee and biscuits. She offered schnapps, and the gendarme raised his spectacles to look closely at the bottle label. In the end he accepted a drink. He leaned back and sipped it. Through walls and doors they could hear the student, a young woman, doing the scales. The gendarme cocked his head but said nothing. Not long thereafter he folded the signed statement and left.
“I’ll have to look for work outside the country,” Albert said to his mother eventually. “I’ll start in Germany.”
Cecilia said nothing. She rose and cleared the table. When she was back from the kitchen she said, “In case you are wondering. I am very angry. You see what this has done to us, this harmless thing? It is getting worse all the time. Theo dead, your father in jail, and you having to flee now, which is what this is. And punching a Rittmeister, a well-connected monarchist, what on earth were you thinking?”
“I wasn’t. But I had no choice. Leave it, Mother. I’ll never apologize for that.”
“And Clara? Look at me, look at your mother!” She sat angry and upright, waiting. “I like that young woman very much, Albert. If you leave to work in another country, what will become of her? She is good for you, and she has spunk, that girl, and substance. Make sure you deserve her and treat her well.”
“I am. Clara knows I’ll have to leave. We spoke about it. She wants to get her degree first.”
“Well, of course. I’d expect nothing less from her. No woman should ever have to depend on any man. God knows. Not even if he’s a son of mine.”
“Mother. None of this, none of it, could have been foreseen.”
“So you say, but I disagree. It was foolish. Look at the consequences.” She sat a moment longer, then she stood up. “I have work to do.”
That same day he applied for a passport in order to be able to leave the country, and when he was denied one he went to the forger for documents in another name. Four weeks later he had just picked them up and surrendered his last money when he was approached by a man in a dark-blue winter coat and hat outside a tobacconist kiosk on Schubertring in Vienna.
“Captain Leonhardt. Wait!” the man said. He stood with his back to the driving snow and he reached into a coat pocket and produced a German military pass. It identified him as a major, and a second document certified that he was the military attaché at the German embassy in Vienna.
“Captain,” he said. He had a lean face and watchful eyes. He was taking his time. “To us you are still a captain, even if your own military has no use for you at this moment.”
Albert nodded at the coat pocket into which the major’s passes had disappeared. “Are they real?” he said. “The documents.”
“They are. I’ll give you a number you can call.”
The major shook his head. “Captain,” he said. “Is that not enough now?”
“Enough what?”
“Enough rejection. Every one of them an injury to the spirit. Such insults. And from people you thought respected you. You have a name, a good reputation. We’ve heard of the incident with the Rittmeister.”
Albert shielded his eyes against the driving snow and stared at the man. “What’s this about?”
“The general must have seen you once on a horse,” said the major. “And what the general wants, the general usually gets.”
“What general?”
The major now reached into the inside coat pocket and handed Albert a letter in a sealed envelope.
“Read it,” he said. “Think carefully and call back. Call this number on the envelope. I will take your call and tell you what to do next.”
The meeting took less than two minutes and the man was gone again.
Albert stepped into the tobacconist’s shop. He nodded to the woman behind the counter and turned his back to read.
The letter was typed under the official letterhead of the German Ministry of Defence; it said that his academic and military records had been carefully reviewed, and that on the strength of them he was being offered a commission and full pay at the rank of major. It said that if he accepted, he would be assigned to the Senior Officers’ Academy outside Munich, and that, after completing the intensive training in tank warfare, he would graduate at the rank of lieutenant colonel. He would also be given a horse of his choice and asked to ride in military competitions for the school.
That evening he drove the Norton through a snowstorm to her flat. He showed her the letter. They sat at the small round table and she read by the light of the lamp her father had fashioned from a small Roman urn, some bronze fittings and a cloth shade.
When she had finished reading, she looked up at Albert, and she saw it in his face that he had already decided. All he wanted was her approval.
FOR HER, THE SEMESTERS of 1934 and 1935 were filled with hard work and academic challenge. The oral exams in English and Latin had to be prepared for, but they were easy compared to the papers she had to write in Philosophy. Professor Emmerich was as demanding as ever; now in his fourth year with them he had lost some students, but the remainder he drove as hard as ever. And he told them why. He said that this now was the time when they were putting in place the key elements of the intellectual structures they would be referring to for the rest of their lives.
“These are not just words and ideas,” he said. “These are principles of thought. Of attitude and morality. Principles.”
He had moved on to Nietzsche and his idea of the Übermensch, not as the Nazis would corrupt it for their own notions of superiority but as real men and women who did not run with the herd but who took on the solitary struggle to overcome their own dark sides, and who in doing so found morality and strength right there, within themselves.
He gave them Kierkegaard again, and he advanced Kant and Hegel, and Husserl.
“To truly know a thing,” he paraphrased Husserl. “To truly know anything, ask: what is its basic idea? What is its primary purpose? Never rush yourself. Make it one of your principles to be methodical and think things out for yourself. Ask, what is this thing in itself? Find the one perfect word to express it, and go from there.”
He gave them these barebones men, as he called them, these uncompromising thinkers whose ideas were hard as granite, and he set their minds on fire all over again – hers and Erika’s, and all those who would not miss a lecture of his, not even if they had to travel extra miles around police actions and demonstrations and sometimes around gunfire to get to it.
He made them write paper after paper, and he taught them how to think and he made them come alive to ideas even as the social world around them was disintegrating, as the government that had replaced the murdered Dollfuss was slipping deeper and deeper into economic failure, and as the forbidden Nazis and the Communists were gaining strength.
“This merely temporary world,” Professor Emmerich reminded them. “A passing and insignificant one in its current confusions and contradictions. Pay only enough attention to it to get by, but don’t take it seriously. Eventually we will deal with that too; with different ways of seeing it. For now, as always, trust only your own mind and be secure and calm within yourself. Nothing else matters. Nothing. Nothing.”
ON NEW YEAR’S DAY 1935, they became engaged. They celebrated at the Leonhardt flat, with Erika, Mitzi, and Cecilia as the solemn witnesses to this happy deed.
There was wine and good bread and black-market ham, and Cecilia played American music on the piano for them. They danced and they sat on the big couch in the living room, she leaning against him as he held her. At one point her happiness overwhelmed her, and not just her happiness, but a sudden fear also, a dawning of perhaps some enormous consequence looming.
Always look closely at fear, Dr. Freud had said to them. Fear as a warning, an alert like pain to pay attention. Or fear as a yellow traffic light. The least one ought to do, he said, was slow down and look in both directions. A day later she understood what the fear was, and she packed and took the train to St. Töllden. There she admitted everything to her parents. Peter, who was visiting with Daniela, sat in.
She told of the shooting death of Theodor, of the incarceration of the father, and of Albert’s dishonourable dismissal from the Austrian cavalry. She skipped his breaking the nose of the Rittmeister, but she did tell of his signing up with the German military and finally of their engagement.
Defiantly she said she fully intended to marry him, once she had her doctorate and her own career. But as she said so, her lips were quivering and her eyes filled with tears.
When she had finished, there was a terrible silence. Peter looked stunned. Her father looked heart-broken, and her mother had raised both hands to her mouth in disbelief. Only Daniela was secretly winking encouragement.