“SURPRISE.”
His eyes glided over her flushing, stiffening features, saw denial following shock there. Then contempt rounded up the explicit display. She’d written off his declaration as an obnoxious attempt to pull her leg.
Then she stated her conclusion. “Nice try, Roque. It would be a balmy day in hell the day you’re my leader.”
Exhilaration coursed through his system. “Is it the word ‘leader’ you object to? Want to call me something else? ‘Chief’ maybe? Personally, I prefer ‘boss'. Crooned by that voice of yours…” He left the explicit imagery up to her memory, his gaze sweeping over her, no longer deliberate, succumbing to the pleasure of absorbing her exquisiteness. And her ratcheting agitation.
“I’m not calling you anything at all!”
He moved closer, re-establishing contact with her. “Then don’t call me anything, meu bela. Touch me instead.”
Her pupils almost filled her cat’s-eye-like irises. “Drop the cheap seduction act, Roque.” Her voice was husky, tight.
Not as tight as he was. Head, chest and loins. Her voice—it had echoed in his head, attacking him with sudden clarity over the years, creating the illusion of her proximity at times when it had done the most damage. He’d added to her sins with each onslaught. But it had lost its languid, reticent overtones, became more hard-hitting. Or maybe he’d never heard her in hot-blooded anger before. He could get used to this.
He went after more, provoked her, with both tone and touch. “Who says it’s an act, belleza?”
She gasped, and he almost did. Unbelievable. The people around them went unnoticed. The dozen reasons for antipathy lying between them went unheeded. So her effect on him hadn’t been an exaggerated memory. But at least back then he’d been a moonstruck fool who’d believed he loved her. Now he despised her. Shouldn’t that dampen his reaction? Apparently not.
He got out his cellphone, tugged her stiff, sweaty hand, exerted enough power to keep her from pulling it away, to place the phone there. “Call GAO Central and confirm my appointment.”
She stared at the phone for a couple more moments before she drew in a tremulous inhalation and hit the dial button. She kept those unique eyes that he’d convinced himself he’d banished from his every fantasy focused on the screen.
Those eyes—they’d once made him ready to lose a limb to make her whole again. They were now filled with frustration and fury. And shock as she got confirmation of what he’d said.
He tried to savor the emotions kicking inside him. Relish? Triumph? So why didn’t they feel good? Feel good? He’d no longer know what “feel good” felt like if it rammed him in the guts.
Anger rose again. He was entitled to satisfaction, snatching this from her. So why couldn’t he damn well enjoy it?
He knew why. It was what he saw in those eyes. Panic.
Sim, certamente. As if the woman who’d traveled the most dangerous regions of his vast country, the one who’d gone under the scalpel electively so many times, who’d just braved the threats of superstitious, desperate people, would fear anything.
But she was distressed. He should relish that.
But he didn’t. He hated seeing her distressed, hated more being the source of her distress. Deus, he was pathetic. And this after the thousand scenes he’d imagined since she’d walked out on him, of how he’d feel on the event of their “reunion.”
But she hadn’t only walked out on him. She’d left him struggling with the loss of their unborn baby, with knowing why she hadn’t wanted it. And ever since then, he’d projected. Then he’d laid eyes on her again and all his conjectures had evaporated.
He would have been content if it had been pure lust he’d felt. It, too, was ugly and cold and indifferent. But what he’d felt had stunned him. He’d just felt… happy to see her.
It had to be her beauty. Surgery had restored it then time had ripened it. That must explain the same sledgehammer effect.
But it wasn’t the same. She wasn’t. In the past, she’d trembled at his approach, melted at his touch. Now she’d dismissed him, challenged him, the haughtiness he’d only tasted when she’d had enough of him elevated to an art.
But there was something else besides the new fire and cool hauteur. Before there’d been silk running through her, a malleability that had driven him to extremes to protect her. Now there was steel. He’d seen how deep it ran through her during Qircamo’s procedure. Had it been bestowed by her ordeals? Or had it always been there and he’d just been oblivious to it?
But he was sure one thing was totally new. The assurance of experience.
An experience that extended to men?
Deus! What was that acrid taste? Jealousy? How stupid would that be? They’d both lived their lives since their explosive, short-lived marriage had ended.
So you call the attempts to rid yourself of her taste in other women’s arms living your life? an inner voice mocked.
No. That had been a waste. His work had been, and remained, the only living he did. And there he surely lived to the full.
She ended the taut phone call, turned stiffly to him.
“So it’s true.” She handed back his phone. He closed his hand over hers as he took it. She gritted her teeth. “All I want to know now is how you managed it. And why. This is my project!”
He shrugged lazily. “I know, and I must congratulate you on a job well done in setting it up.” And this was nothing but the truth. She’d gone above and beyond the call of duty. “Your stage is truly set.”
Her exquisite eyebrows drew together. “Stage? What stage? Is this some sort of metaphor?”
“We both know what stage, Jóia. It’s self-evident.”
“Not to me,” she said through gritted teeth. “Do explain the obvious!”
Anyone would believe she had no idea what he was talking about. Very convincing. As convincing as the melancholy and vulnerability that had so clashed with her voluptuousness, that had turned his attraction into obsession. He now realized it had been a trick for the cameras, her claim to fame. That it had become real after her accident was beside the point.
But in the past hours there’d been no hint of that sadness that had driven him to excesses to erase. She’d surely changed.
If not for the better! Her obsession with regaining her beauty betrayed her need to make the leap back into the spotlight. And she’d found an ingenious way that was a hundred times more effective than modeling. A reality show starring the world’s first doctor who was also an adventurer, an explorer, a humanitarian worker and a woman as alluring as a movie star.
And that was why he was here. To stop her exploiting this expedition and his people for her own ends.
“Well?”
Her sharp, imperative tone made him grit his teeth. “You have a film crew along, don’t you?”
“Huh…?” She gaped at his counter-question. Then she shook her head. “There’s any logic to this out-of-the-blue question?”
His lips twisted in a sneer. “I have to give it to you—the concept is ground-breaking. As many expeditions as there are into the Brazilian rainforest, none have been undertaken to reach the isolated tribes of the Vale do Javari region to diagnose and treat the diseases that pose a threat to their survival. And I just happen to know your purpose behind this worthy endeavor.”
He knew all there was to know about her since she’d left him. Though her personal life remained obscure, as if she had none… He exhaled, stifled foolish conjectures.
“And what the hell is this ‘purpose’ that you make sound so sinister?” she seethed.
“Add yourself, a film crew, the Amazon and endangered people to the concerns GAO have about the nature and purpose of the ‘documentary’ you’ve included as an integral part of this expedition, and the result is clear. An unprecedented pilot to launch a blockbusting reality show.”
It was her turn to stare. And stare. Heat blasted off her, scorching him with her soaring anger. Was she mad that he’d found her out? An explosive denial was sure to follow.
Sure enough, she finally erupted, “A reality show? This is what you think I’m doing here?”
He gave her his best baiting smile. “It’s not?”
“Damn straight it’s not. Of all the moronic ideas! And this is why you’re here? To join the show? Taking over my projects?”
“It’s not your project,” he growled, cutting her off. “It’s GAO’s. And it’s up to them to decide who’s best equipped to lead such a delicate mission.”
“And you’re the one best equipped?”
He could swear she choked on her tongue at the unintended double-entendre. As if she were still the virgin who’d dissolved in his arms for those long, delirious months. She must have garnered experience since him.
Since him? Ha. By the time she’d left him, she could have given advanced courses to the most notorious femme fatale.
He pressed closer. “I am. Want a reminder?”
A flush swept her face. “Spare me, Roque.” She struggled with what looked like a dozen rants all demanding to erupt at once. Then one won, spilled from her flushed lips in a hot gush. “Just what the hell do you mean, ‘concerns about the nature and purpose of the documentary'? This is the first I’ve heard of any such nonsense. Though it wasn’t my idea, when I was approached for it, I thought it a great one. Those endangered people need to have their story told with compassion and realism, to raise awareness of their plight.”
He smirked. “As I said, a worthy cause. One that is sure to catapult you to unparalleled fame.”
“This is not about me! This has nothing to do with me!”
“It doesn’t? You won’t star in this ‘documentary'?”
“Star? Where are you getting these ridiculous ideas?”
“You’re not going to be the narrator, the viewer’s guide to this exotic world and the heart-wrenching human drama?”
This gave her pause. At length, she nodded. “They did ask me to appear with my team in a few shots while we performed our duties. Is this why…?” She stopped again. “Listen, I’ve seen samples of the production company’s documentaries and they were certainly no commercial fluff. I don’t know where GAO got the idea that…” Her eyes widened on incensed realization. “It was you! You planted this idea that this was some sort of maneuver to exploit the expedition for commercial ends!”
“I didn’t plant anything. I just made information available to them. That the director of your film crew works mainly on commercials and reality shows, who you really are and what you once did for a living. They drew their own conclusions.”
“So that’s how you made them give you the reins of the expedition!”
He shrugged again. “Giving them to me was the least they could do, considering I’m the one financing the whole thing.”
Some new word had to be invented for what filled her eyes. Shock was too mild a word. He had expected this piece of information to surprise her, but to that extent?
He watched her struggle with her out-of-control distress, if only for moments. Then it was his turn to be surprised at the disdain flooding in its wake, the knowing gleam entering her eyes. “As the expedition is costing almost a million dollars, you must have married an heiress somewhere along the way.”
So she really didn’t know. Hadn’t bothered to find out.
He pressed her backwards until she was flush against the truck’s side. He was going to enjoy this.
He smiled his spite down on her. “Now, how could I marry an heiress when I’m still married to you, minha esposa?”