Waiting For Mr. Ashwell

Robert Fitzwilliam Ashwell, he’d always gone by Ash, was not all right. He’d tried to convince his family, friends and himself that he was with little success. Ash had spent his whole life hating himself and trying to run from the truth. Despite his best efforts, Ash had failed to kill himself during the war. “I tried like hell. Each time, I tried to take as many of the enemy with me or shield as many of my men as I could but it was just about me and how much I wanted it all to end.”

Easygoing, puckish natured, incredibly intelligent and blatantly sensual, Ned was Ash’s greatest source of joy and torment. After twenty years of friendship, Ash struggled to keep his feelings and desires from Ned. Secretly, Ned burned for Ash since the moment they first met. But because of the expectations of his title and wealth, Ned did everything he could to make himself enjoy women. Everything. The only thing preventing him from doing the inevitable and marrying had been Ash.

Everything changes when Ash’s secret is revealed. Elston Abbey, Ned’s home and Ash’s childhood safe haven will never be the same. Decades of love and longing hurl them into an erotic whirlwind neither could have foreseen. Despite the sensual and emotional bliss, Ash lives in fear of losing Ned to the obligations of his title and the danger of their discovery. Ned refuses to give up the only thing he has ever wanted. “It’s not new, Ash! It’s been here forever, waiting for us. I’m never going to regret this. And there’s no going back.”