Finding Himself (Identity, #1)

Mathew has trouble with his sexuality. Ever since he was young, he thought there was something wrong with him. Throughout his teens he questions his need to like both males and females. He wonders if it’s wrong to feel this way.

As he goes through his journey, Mathew fears rejection and heartbreak, and decides to pretend that he’s like every other teenage boy, and dates the hottest girl at school. But the moment he leaves for university, there is a new found freedom in him, a freedom that pushes him to explore things he only imagined. Things he was too afraid to. Mathew meets Chris and Jess, and both are competing for his attention. But he’s not looking for a relationship, instead, Mathew wants to be free to explore everything he never got the chance to do.

Excerpt

Chris pulled back a moment, and ran his hand down the side of Mathew’s face.

‘Hey,’ said Mathew.

‘Hey.’ He stole a kiss.

‘How did you know?’ asked Mathew.

‘I didn’t. I took a chance. When I saw you looking at me the way you did in there, I just had to take a chance.’ He kissed him again, pulled on his lower lip teasingly.

‘I’m so glad you did.’ He breathed against him heavily.

‘Yeah me too.’ This time he pressed his lips against his and didn’t stop. He wanted to take the gorgeous hunk home!

‘Matt? Matt?’

‘Did you hear that?’ Chris pulled back.

‘Yeah.’

‘Matt, where are you?’

Mathew straightened up, and so did Chris.

‘Better get back,’ said Matthew.

‘Not before I do this.’ He brought Mathew’s face forward to meet his lips.

Mathew enjoyed the kisses, but the closer the calls came, the more he knew they couldn't continue.