chapter seven

I Don’t Believe in Destiny

I’m walking back to my apartment through Westwood after having just come from the gym. As I pass a record store a Tori Amos poster catches my eye. I remember a girl in college who fucked me a few times because she saw my roommate’s copy of a Tori Amos album lying on the floor and thought it was mine. She thought I was a sensitive guy who listened to that type of shit and to my surprise gave some of the best head I’ve ever had. I always kind of felt guilty for never paying Tori back.

Past the poster, through the window, I see something and almost shit my pants. Alyna the plane girl is working behind one of the registers. I decide to buy a fucking Tori Amos album.

As I walk in, I’m immediately hit with a wave of panic. I don’t know if I should act like I remember her from the plane or if I shouldn’t. What should I do if she remembers me? I busy myself by walking over to a listening station, but it’s broken.

I browse the DVD section.

Fuck it, I walk up to the counter, straight to her.

“Do you guys have a new release section or something?”

“Yeah, it’s over there.”

I walk over in the direction she pointed without a doubt in my mind that she remembers me. I wander around for a few minutes, away from the new releases, until I find some Tori Amos CDs. I take one, pretend to look around at some other shit and see if I can catch her checking me out. I can’t.

I go back up to the register and toss the disc on the counter. She picks it up and looks at it, then looks at me.

“Are you really into this?”

I don’t know what the fuck to say. “Uh, yeah, I like her stuff, why?”

“All of her music sounds the same.”

“Whose doesn’t?”

“Good point.”

She rings me up and that’s our first conversation.

That night Casey comes over and sees the unopened CD lying on my couch.

“I never knew you liked Tori.”

She unwraps the CD and starts playing it. I wonder if she ever fucked a guy based on his musical preference.

Later that night she tells me that she’s just not in the mood for sex. For the first time since we’ve started fucking, this doesn’t bother me. Casey curls up next to me and falls asleep in my arms without touching my dick at all and it doesn’t bother me. I wonder what Alyna’s ass looks like when you fuck her doggie style and spread it apart a little bit, and I fall asleep.