chapter 10
Spiritual Rehabilitation
for Injured Souls
Juniper wants to find answers to questions she has regarding a sense of not belonging. She is a free spirit. Others in her life who are very traditional in their thinking are often judgmental and critical of her beliefs, which causes her to feel discouraged for not fitting in.
She has not come for a session to question the afterlife or whether there even is an afterlife. She wants to find out more about her purpose in life and why she came to Earth to begin with. She feels there is something else she is to do beyond raising her children, which she enjoys very much. Something is calling her, and she wants to understand more about what it is. She hopes that today’s SESR session will provide more insight into the answers she seeks.
Moving through her soul’s history, she makes a few stops in her current life that are needed to clear issues surrounding grief. These are significant because losing several close friends at a young age has left her feeling disconnected from those around her, and contributes to her sense of not belonging. Part of the reason for this is, of course, missing her friends who have passed, and the other reason is the way that those around her have chosen to deal with death. Sometimes they don’t know what to say, or are insensitive in the way they approached her about the loss.
Juniper stops over in the womb, where she feels very connected to her life. She feels a sense of innocence in a strong, capable body. She notices that her mind is open, yet somewhat fanciful. She comments that as a young girl, mystical things always made more sense to her than people and relationships; she was confused about why people acted the way they did.
Being a mother herself, it is wonderful for Juniper to re-experience the warmth of her mother’s love and her joy at being pregnant. Juniper’s father is happy about the pregnancy too. He is also surprised that Juniper is coming so quickly after her brother; he had hoped they’d have a little longer to prepare before having another child.
In the womb, Juniper feels strong and capable, knowing she is coming to help people remember. Her purpose is to serve as a touchstone to the “other side” to help them remember, in order to bring healing through these memories. Her guide explains that people will naturally be drawn to her because they can sense this about her.
Additionally, she understands that part of the dynamic she has chosen for herself this time around is to go it alone to learn how to maneuver the twists and turns of life. At a certain level, souls have and need less guidance, so this is a natural part of her soul’s evolution. Of course, help is available, but at times she feels lost, seemingly without a teacher to guide her and she will have to figure it out herself.
She has chosen a family who will love her, but not always understand her. She knows she won’t have that kind of emotional support from them. She hopes that she can help them to gain a broader vision, and that maybe they will come to understand her better because of it.
While in the womb her soul is able to come and go right up until the birth. She describes it as a sense of freedom where she can fly fast in the expansiveness of the clouds and communicate fully with her spiritual team in the cosmic realm. It is a last chance to be free and unencumbered before she squeezes herself into a tiny package for the final joining, like a lightning bolt fusing the soul and body together just before the birth process will begin.
She comments that like all the lives she has lived on Earth, she doesn’t like the denseness there. She starts out as a brilliant light but feels whittled away. This mind and body are a good fit with her soul’s consciousness, but the emotional system requires rebalancing when she has to interact with the people. It is frustrating being in this human form, trying to work with the people. Sometimes Juniper gets caught up in a wave of emotion because this brain is programmed in an overly fanciful way to keep her from “forgetting” completely about life on the other side. This makes it more difficult to relate to others or fall into place with them, while not wanting to get caught up in games people play.
The brain is an important part of the balancing process; however, when these systems get overloaded, it’s more difficult for it to return to balance. Juniper needs to take time to disconnect from those around her to restore the much-needed balance to herself. Although she is afraid she is being frivolous, she is reassured it’s a vital component to her emotional and overall state of well-being. Balance is important for keeping everything running smoothly.
The journey along Juniper’s soul’s history leads her to a past life in the late 1800s as a seven-year-old boy named Jushen who lived in a village in the mountains of Asia. It was daytime as he found himself standing in front of a temple that was surrounded by prayer flags. He was wrapped in a deep, red-colored outfit, and stood with other dark-eyed boys dressed the same way. Their brown skin had a ruddy complexion to it from the dry, cold climate of the mountains.
Jushen and the other boys were in training to become Tanjian monks. The young monks were chosen by the older monks at a very young age and brought to the temple. Jushen described this with mixed feelings. “It was sad to leave my parents,” he said, “but it’s an honor to be chosen.” The sacrifice was worth it for the greater good of others.
Once inside the prayer temple, the energy and warmth filled the space, in contrast to the cold stoniness of the floor. Woven mats were placed on the stone floor for each child with a big prayer wheel on either side with space between them. “We’re taken care of. There is love and compassion here,” the young monk commented. “This is where I spend my days.”
As he became a teenager, Jushen’s job was to work with the earth. Not much grew in the rocky garden soil just outside the temple. He often went outside to gaze over the mountaintop, curious about the rest of the world beyond his view. It’s about perspective, Jushen said. “I’m far up on this hill with all this sight, but I’m not really a part of what I’m able to see. My teachers who are kind and patient have lived their whole life here. I’m happy here but it’s a different kind of happy. For me it’s more like a sense of duty and satisfaction. It’s a feeling of fullness from committing to that. It’s a life of introspection within myself. It’s a chance to pull worlds together in my mind like a bridge.”
The monks lived high atop the mountain, which was a difficult place for people to travel. Occasionally people brought supplies to the temple, and there were a few families scattered on the outskirts that the monks helped when someone died or was sick; this kept the monks from feeling permanently and purposely cut off from everyone. There was great respect here. People who came there did so without disrupting the balance because they respected it.
As Jushen grew older, many of his teachers were older or had died. He and several other monks took on the role of teaching the children. It was the way of keeping the old traditions alive, the same as he had been brought up.
At the end of that life, Jushen died on the mountaintop as an old man in his early seventies, the same as his teachers had before him. He was surrounded by the children he had helped, who were now adults guiding the next generation of young monks along the path to monkhood. He was proud of them and the work they were doing. He died feeling content having lived a simple life that had been about the work, the sacrifice, and the discipline.
Crossing into the spirit world, Jushen sheds the body of the disciplined monk and feels the freedom of his spirit expand beyond the boundaries of his earthly body. His spirit is greeted by his guide who embraces him and says, “Good to see you ….” They have known one another forever and are on an equal level with one another. Getting down to business right away, his guide says, “Glad you’re back; there’s a lot of work to do with displaced souls.”
Right away Juniper is shown an image of someone in a healing box among chambers of healing boxes where the displaced souls are put to be healed and renewed. She informs me that she works here. These souls remain here a few hundred years (in Earth time), or sometimes forever, to be looked after like a kind of spiritual rehabilitation center. Juniper is like a “soul doctor” for extreme souls. She oversees the rehabilitation process of the injured souls to make sure that they are healing properly.
With no time to waste, she goes directly to her “office,” which is equipped with a shower where she quickly showers off the “stuff” from her earthly life. She puts on her white lab coat and picks up her clipboard while those she left in charge bring her up to date on the state of things while she was away.
It’s fascinating to hear her talk about how she’s worked with the injured souls for millennia. She discusses it quite matter-of-factly as if it were just another day at the office. She describes how she uses these “trips” to Earth as a way to stay checked in to the human condition and for learning to work with the dense energies on Earth. Upon returning to the rehabilitation center following these trips, she takes a quick light shower in her own quarters to be refreshed. She goes on to describe these showers as being like warm, non-sticky honey that runs down her soul body to release the dense energies. She says that “sometimes it can get confusing when I incarnate because of the dark energies of Earth. It’s like taking their ‘stuff’ home from the office with me.”
There’s an intensity to the work Juniper does in the spirit world. “It still has a quality of pain to it,” she says, “a correlation of having done the work here. I can feel the pain there. I have to hold on to threads of it when working with extreme souls, so I can keep a handle on what I’m doing and what they’re doing.” She explains that “the souls in the boxes are mostly male, masculine incarnated souls. They are the serial killers, mass murderers, and those who have lost their connection.” Juniper’s soul works with them, doing a kind of energetic therapy. Part of that therapy involves her just being with them. She makes contact with these souls to help them to re-establish their soul connection.
Each ward of the rehab center is laid out differently, and there are different jobs for different wards. Not everyone is allowed contact with these souls, nor are these souls allowed contact with one another. Juniper goes into their space to explore and study them. “I choose to view them as my children,” she explains. “The close contact I provide them helps directly with the reconnection.”
Juniper’s soul works closely with her guide. While she’s on Earth, her guide is a point of connection to her work at the rehab center in the spirit world. She recognizes other spirits who pass through this hospital-like place. They float by, saying “welcome back” as they return to their wing of the center to do their own work.
After “work,” Juniper goes to her own cottage within a small community to rest and renew her energy. Upon deciding to go there, she is immediately transported there. It’s a beautiful stone cottage with a permeating sense of peace. She goes there alone, while those who she’s closest to reside nearby like neighbors in the woods. “Although it feels like we’re all a group, each of us is an individual. Although we all want to be around one another, we don’t reside in the same place,” she explains. “We all ‘will’ our own place of peace. We’ve constructed these sanctuaries because of the work that we do.”
Juniper uses the energy from the cottage to keep her own soul’s energy balanced. The special stones that make the structure offer a different form of healing vibration for restorative balance. This place contains the things she needs that she creates and places around her, such as the woods and ocean. Finding those same things on Earth is beneficial. It’s not a luxury, it’s necessary for her; she also needs to let go and enjoy life more. She is reminded of this again, as she was in the womb segment of our session, because it’s important that she find time for this on Earth.
This is more of an individual track for a soul, rather than being a part of or doing the same things as most souls in this world. It’s not easy to do. She knows that this is where much of her sense of not belonging comes from in her incarnations.
Momentarily reflecting on the life as the monk, Juniper recognizes that some of her current life feelings of separation stem from that life, but knows it was important to bring the remembrance of Jushen’s life in with her to assist with her current life mission. It makes sense to her now that what is lacking in her current life is the respect for one another that had been so abundant in the life on top of the mountain.
Her guide reminds her that she doesn’t have to isolate herself from others during her incarnations, but this specialty work is difficult to drop suddenly when she incarnates on Earth. “It’s like I’m bringing ‘baggage’ with me when I incarnate, rather than the other way around,” she says. “People are drawn to me and then put off by my non-traditional beliefs. This is a direct correlation to the work in the spirit world with my job being rehabilitation of damage. I’m going to attract things that need repair. But when it’s attracted on this realm, people are afraid, though being drawn toward it … there’s a lack of understanding and acceptance.”
Next, beings lead Juniper to an area in the spirit world that goes from lightness to darkness to show how darkness is really pain. They reveal this as a denser side of injury. “Denser, lower, and mysterious, but still it’s pain,” they advise her. “People [in human form] want relief. They want to be heard. They are drawn to the other side out of their desire for light.” Juniper’s soul in its various incarnations helps to bring light into their world.
She informs me that she has a different understanding of darkness now. “Dark intentions or any sort of work done with the perception that it’s being done out of malice can be considered darkness … it can also be a feeling of being off track or misguided.” This is different than someone like a soldier who is required to kill in order to keep others safe. Her work with extreme souls is with those souls who cross the line. “It’s an expression of the soul to decide to go to a place that is labeled as dark, but it’s exploration. It’s just another facet of our individual journey and exploration into what’s possible.”
When I ask if serial killers incarnate with this intent, she tells me that serial killers do not incarnate with the intent to be that. They get off track with their soul’s mission upon incarnating. Something changes in their soul’s personality within their human mind that makes them more susceptible to this behavior. It’s as if a spark is ignited at some point, like a fire that these souls decide not to put out. What feels like massive, uncontrolled injury and pain to them is a form of a lost connection.
Juniper and others work to restore the connection by starting from the beginning. It’s a process of reparenting the soul and taking it back to its origins. She explains that she’s not afraid and she doesn’t love them any less. She works with them on an energetic level to nurture them and hold them to get them back to a stable place. There’s no rush. It takes a great deal of time to achieve this. It also takes a great deal of energy from Juniper, such that coming to Earth sometimes feels like a break from this intense work.
After spending much of the session learning about her role in the spirit world, it is time to visit with the Elders. She remarks that the Elders consist of an eclectic mix from different places. One leads the meeting and reminds Juniper to “go slow, don’t be so concerned with the need to progress in a certain way on Earth or to meet certain expectations.” She is to remember what she has come here to do and to facilitate it. It’s important for her to be part of a community where she’ll find the support she needs. It’s not all about the work, it’s also about enjoying life more, and the work will still get done. There’s a tendency to want to go in and do the work so the work can all be over, but that’s not how it works. It’s important to have a life and maintain that deep connection.
Juniper comments how she’s surrounded by people who are stuck, and seeing them that way is stressful to her. It’s difficult to see them living in such a small way, but she’s reminded that they all have their lessons to learn, and hurting is a part of that. She is told she can help them better from a distance by not being so involved. The Elders reassure her that she is doing fine; she should not be afraid to be more a part of things. It’s part of the human experience to be vulnerable. In fact, it’s okay.
Juniper is given a glimpse of her future where she sees herself feeling more solid in being herself. She releases things she no longer needs and along with that will come a sense of liberation. She is shown her husband supporting these changes as they downsize their lives. They will travel and explore exciting places. She sees her children are happy with fewer things and enjoying the company of friends. In doing this, her children will get the lesson that what’s simple is what’s most important.
As a gift, the Elders show Juniper that the world is in the palm of her hand. They tell her that she has all that she needs on Earth as they hand her a crystal ball that fits perfectly into the palm of her hand to use for clarity and for vision. She sees herself opening up more and letting in more information and light. They tell her that opening to the small things taking place around her will bring in the light. She is shown other beings around her “minding their own business.” Using her gift of perception, she will tune in to the subtleties more clearly now as a constant reminder of the magic that is taking place on all levels and remember that we are not the only thing happening right now.
The Elders advise Juniper that what she had thought is a fanciful way of looking at things is more accurate than she realizes. She doesn’t need to change who she is just because others around her can’t see what she does. She can use this energy to help them expand.
Juniper’s soul group’s first incarnation was not on Earth, which leads me to ask further about the workings of other levels with one another, specifically if there are ETs in the spirit world. One of the Elders, who is an ET, comes forward and responds, “It isn’t that we’re separate, it’s just that we’re individual and different. We all have a planet of origin that resonates with our vibration and we just take on that role and that costume while we reside there … extraterrestrials were created with different gifts, different ways of relating, and different things to offer.”
He informs Juniper (and me) that they’re wired differently, with a different vibration, and their costume is easily accessible and easy to differentiate. “It’s like how you can tell it’s them, just like a doctor dresses like a doctor or a monk wears his robe,” she says. “We are ‘them’ when we are home. Our planet of origin or where we spend most of our time feels more comforting and is an easier place to be.”
Before wrapping up, Juniper is reassured that she is capable. Working in the ward with the damaged souls is like an “internship” before she progresses to the next level. In doing this work on the ground level there is faster healing for all. Her spiritual team reassures her that they know this work is not easy and she doesn’t have to go it alone. The crystal ball will help her to stay connected with them, and whenever she feels alone, it will serve as a reminder that she is not. In other lifetimes she didn’t need this connection, but times have changed.
Lastly, she’s reminded that just as it’s important to connect with others, it’s important for her to nurture the compassion, to experience and to allow her energy to flow. “Don’t stifle it,” they tell her; it’s vital to her current life’s mission as a touchstone to help people remember.
With that, this long session ends. Juniper is tired and excited all at the same time. She needs time to let this settle, but she feels good about the valuable insights and answers she has received. A little over a year after her session, she contacts me to let me know that her husband had been offered a wonderful job opportunity in a foreign country. They sold their belongings, packed up the kids, and decided to see the world from the perspective of a different country and culture.
Many of the worries she once had about how to fulfill her life’s mission are gone. She has taken training on a new career path and made a plan for herself that will allow her to set her own hours around her family’s schedule and their needs, to do the work she so desperately feels called to do. She can do all of this while enjoying a life in a beautiful country where the pace is slower and new adventures lie ahead. The crystal ball in the palm of her hand remains a reminder to her of how work doesn’t have to feel like work; it can be fun too!
_ Soul-Minded Exercise _
Everyone needs a place to unwind when they get home at the end of the day. Creating a calming atmosphere around you can transport you from the stresses of daily life and help you to relax, when it’s done with awareness. If others live with you, then choose an area you can work with. It doesn’t have to be the entire house; it could be that you redo a bathroom to enjoy relaxing in the tub, or bring a chair into the bedroom for a quiet spot to read or listen to music. For others, the den is their sanctuary, so make it relaxing for you and your family. For some, their special place may be the back porch.
Journal for a moment the things you like, such as colors you find pleasant and relaxing. Look around your home to the things that surround you. Do you see things you like around you? If yes, what are they? If no, why not? What vibe does your home give off? Peaceful or chaotic?
Create a special space in your home to unwind by bringing together your favorite things from nature—like gemstones, essential oils, plants, salt lamps, music, etc. Bring in elements of earth, wind, water, and fire. Choose décor with your favorite colors, or from your favorite artist or photographer. The color you choose is important. It can feel calming or keep you keyed up depending on the color you choose. Create or find an outdoor space too.
Now sit in your relaxing space and take a look at yourself: where are your dark areas, injuries? What are you afraid of uncovering?
Take a look at the people in your life with a new perspective. Are you surrounded by people but not being authentic to yourself? Are you too isolated? Do you need to be a part of a community?
Are you having fun in your life? What could you do to bring more fun into your life?
Journal your findings and learn to heal these with light, fun, and joy.