Delicate and Jumpy

Turns out I feel my body

more than I should. My eyes dart

like a small animal. I’m a museum

of necklines and cloudscapes, a heaven

diving into the wrong hard mountain.

Soon a beer-colored sky will sneak

up behind the fence. I toss my hair

to the street without permission.

A couple in matching pea coats smokes

electronic cigarettes across the platform.

I am a tiny robot like them

but there is no one to love my robo-heart.

On the last day of the year I enter

a scalding tub and think you away.

It is too cold and too quiet for me

to sign language the sky.

Right now six people are in outer space,

and you are growing smaller in my mind.

I just want to have a heart for this, to be

a shaved dog, begging at your heels.