MY GATHAS

Gathas are small verses or poems which we use to help us in our mindfulness practice. Usually we learn them and recite them silently to ourselves whilst we engage in a certain activity … A great practice is to use gathas that we find inspiring, and to compose our own gathas to help ourselves and others to develop mindfulness in our daily life.

—Website for Luminous Ground, Buddhist organization

Driving the Car

Getting into my car,

I vow that I will drive with

Mindful care and caution

If in fact this is my vehicle

For I often step into

Someone else’s car

By accident

If I have done so now, here in the parking lot of Stop & Shop,

May I smile with self-compassion,

And not curse my cluelessness,

For the cars where I live are all Subarus,

And all the same model, and all the same “Jasmine Green”

A vast forest of Foresters

Going to the Movies

Taking my seat in the movie theater,

I am excited to be here, and

Offer my heartfelt hope that it is not

A movie like Carol,

Beautiful but so boring

I loved the period costumes, but

Wearied of the endless shots of the movie stars gazing soulfully

At each other, or

Staring into space

Like mute people

“I love talking to you,” one of the women said to the other in one scene,

Which was strange, because

They hardly talked at all

May this be a movie with more dialogue,

And fewer close-ups

And way better sex scenes

Using the Phone

Breathing in, I call the operator to report

A suspicious voice mail from a person claiming to represent

My credit card company

Then I remember that there are no operators anymore, as there is

No “phone company”

Breathing out, I turn this moment of agitation into a reflection on how everything changes

And remind myself of other bygone things I used to complain about but now sort of miss:

Rockefeller Republicans, airplane meals, Sonny Bono, Tom Carvel,

Times Square when it was

Nasty

And men who leered at me on the street

On second thought,

Maybe not Sonny

Washing My Face

Washing my face, I thank my skin for being there, for each and every pore of it

What a wonderment it is!

I note the long red scar down my left cheek, the result of a recent Mohs surgery

To remove a tiny skin cancer

I note how the scar looks like I have

Slept funny, leaving a crease on my face

Except that this crease seems to be permanent

I tell myself that permanence is an illusion, and that

The scar will disappear with my corporeal self

Meanwhile,

One day, perhaps, I will get used to it,

And not want to weep whenever I see myself

In a mirror

Brushing My Teeth

Brushing my teeth, I consider the

Turkish Taffy, Sugar Daddys, and

Bazooka bubble gum

Of my youth,

And marvel that I have any teeth left at all

Even if they require a lot of time in the dentist’s chair

Although the crown covering my new root canal is merely temporary,

Because I never went back to get

The real one

I give thanks to my crown for hanging in there

Swiffering

Swiffering my floors, I offer gratitude to the Procter & Gamble company

For a marvelous cleaning product, although I know that

There is some thought that P&G stole the idea of electrostatic cleaning cloths from a Japanese firm

And that the Swiffer Sweeper is based on the “razors and blades” model—that is, I must keep buying expensive new replacement cloths endlessly

Nevertheless!

I love its silence, so unlike the infernal noise of the vacuum cleaner

This silence has changed my life

Allowing me to clean my house,

A chore I do not enjoy,

While talking to my friends on the phone

A win-win for me

Doing the Dishes

Breathing in, I wash the dishes,

Aware of their usefulness in holding

Nourishing meals that have sustained my family for many years

I wonder why it is always, always me doing the dishes

By myself

And whether, interconnected as all human beings are,

This may be the one exception

Breathing out, I release my feelings into the universe, ever hopeful that someone somewhere

Will sense my need

And offer to help

I open my heart to the possibility of this miracle

At the Workplace

Today I vow to regard my coworkers serenely, with

Loving-kindness and without judgment

This one, who appears not to bathe and has a pungent odor,

That one, who leads the e-mail clique trash-talking the rest of us,

Are merely creatures caught in dukkha, or suffering

May they one day be made whole and not so messed up

Or at least transferred to another department

As for my boss,

Who fits exactly the description of the people in

The Sociopath Next Door,

I reflect on the fact that “What goes around comes around”

Is most often not true, and that

Karmic comeuppance is rarely meted out in this life

Yet patience is all

May she spend her next life as a

Howler monkey, her screeches heard only by the other creatures

In some sweltering rain forest

Far, far away