Reasons Not (But What If)

REASONS NOT	(BUT WHAT IF)
• I have no money
• will landlord even let me (is it like a pet clause)
• roommate—no one wants to live w/a baby (Ryan?! doubt even he would) (plus complicated)
• I HAVE NO MONEY
• diapers terrible for environment
• never want to live w/plastic toys on floor
• what if it’s a boy	• raise a feminist boy
	• chance baby will be queer too—genetic factor?
• how would I work and/or how much does day care cost DAY CARE
• this is not the life I planned	• then again technically nothing so far is a life I “planned” and still, amazing
• I’m too young	• when else are you going to do it not exactly a teen pregnancy and besides all those girls in high school managed it sort of
• pain of birth AAAAAAGH	• there are drugs
• no sex ever again? lesbian untouchable?	• big change haha
• don’t know any queers with babies besides, like, Adrienne Rich 2nd wavers who came out late in life after husband etc. I mean people my age. would I have to hang out only w/straight moms at playground
• don’t like word “mommy”
• what if baby calls me “mommy” and won’t stop
• what would I do about Ryan child = child support? = bound for life? Yikes	• could help out some, at least
• HAVE TO TELL PARENTS?!
• entire life as I know it OVER?
• will lose friends	• will find out who real friends are
	• what if it’s cute
	• what if it’s smart
	• what if it’s an amazing person who fixes things no one else could like the world
	• what if I end up loving it more than anything I’ve ever loved
	• what if I already maybe almost do
• no idea how to raise a kid	• kid raised by us would be different
	ULTIMATE DIY PROJECT
• NO MONEY	• have lived w/o money since age 19 money isn’t love have mountains of love uncontrollable love feeling is already kicking in & I’m not sure I want to stop it