I come home from Shane’s shed and Dad’s on the front porch, waiting for me. He’s wearing Mum’s pinny.
‘I’m making Irish stew.’
‘Why aren’t you at work?’
‘I told you. I’m making Irish stew.’
‘Where’s Mum?’
‘I used to make it for your mother. Before we were married.’
There’s been arguments for the last week, but there always are. Usually it goes on for a few nights, then there’s a reunion. ‘No one can resist a grin that wins,’ Dad will say, patting Mum on the bum. ‘Your mum tried to resist my winning grin, Joanna. But no one can resist a grin that wins.’
But this time there’s been no winning grin.
I’ve never known Dad to cook anything. When he’s in the kitchen he’s either eating or reading the paper. Or washing up, tea towel thrown over one shoulder, whistling an Elvis number. And that’s only on Sundays.
But now here he is with Mum’s pinny around his waist, rustling through a pile of Tesco’s bags.
‘Where’s Mum?’
‘Your mother didn’t have any food in the house. Real food, I mean. Not that frozen stuff. So I had to go out.’
I reach into one of the plastic bags. My fingers meet something that feels like blancmange. I let out a yelp.
Dad stretches across me, drags the meat out of the bag, whacks it on the table. ‘Look at that. Real shoulder of lamb. Bone in.’ The dark red flesh is squashed against the cellophane. Blood gathers in the dimples of the Styrofoam tray beneath. ‘That’s where the flavour is, Joanna.’
He rips the cellophane from the meat and turns the flesh under the tap. The water runs pink.
‘You can scrape the spuds,’ says Dad. He holds the blade of Mum’s biggest knife up to his nose, flips it from side to side. ‘You need it sharp.’ He speaks slowly, like he’s dragging out each word. ‘The blunt ones are the most dangerous.’
‘When’s Mum coming back?’
He has no answer. Instead, he positions himself at the counter, legs apart, and cuts into an onion. Beneath the pinny, he’s
wearing a pair of very short yellow shorts. The meat of his thighs flattens out against the cupboard doors. Every now and
then he scrunches up his eyes and sniffs. ‘Big slices for Irish stew,’ he says, scooping up the dry layers of skin and aiming
for the bin.
When Dad finally heaves the stew into the oven, there are bits of potato peel and onion skin on the floor, dribbles of gravy down the cupboards, splashes of fat on the wall. The sink is stained with blood and dirt.
Dad wipes his brow with his forearm. ‘Dumplings,’ he says, emptying the fruit bowl all over the table. He waves the plastic dish in the air. ‘This will do. Now. Flour.’
He instructs me in a loud voice. ‘Use your fingers to bring it together,’ he says, rolling a ball of dough around the fruit bowl.
‘How do you know all this?’
Holding a dumpling in the air, he frowns. ‘It was the only thing,’ he says, ‘the only thing my dad taught me. He used to make
it whenever Mum was out of the house.’ He drops the dumpling into the bowl and wipes his hands down his T-shirt. Grey lumps
of dough stick to the terry-towelling. His bare legs are streaked with flour dust where the pinny doesn’t reach. His T-shirt
is splattered with blood.
Dad puts Tomorrow’s World on and we sit in silence while the presenters argue about whether nuclear fuel is safe or not.
He stares at the television screen, hardly blinking. Occasionally he rubs at the flour streaks on his knees and sighs.
I sit there and watch him watching the television.
When Dad finally says that the stew’s ready, it’s nine thirty. The whole house smells unfamiliar, and I know Mum won’t come back tonight.