40, political activist
ETHNICITY: Burman
BIRTHPLACE: Rangoon Division, Burma
INTERVIEWED IN: Mae Sot, Thailand
We met with Kyaw Zwar in a compound where he works with youth activists. The walls of the compound are covered in graffiti sporting the group’s logo, a thumbs-up symbol. Activists strategize for revolution and practice beat-boxing and guitar around the compound (the group also releases music videos and albums). Kyaw Zwar had been released from his second internment as a political prisoner in Burma just weeks before we interviewed him. According to the Assistance Association for Political Prisoners (Burma), as of November 3, 2010, there were 2,203 political prisoners detained in Burma. They include monks, students, musicians, comedians, elected members of parliament, and lawyers.
If I explained how I became a political organizer, I would have to tell you my whole life story. Ever since 1988, I feel like the military regime took me, put me in a pot, and has been shaking me around. I’d say it’s getting worse.
I was born in Rangoon in 1970. I am the youngest person in my family—I have three brothers and four sisters. When I was young, I didn’t know about politics, and I was not interested. I felt that I had freedom.
Rangoon is not developed but it is crowded. I would say the place where I lived is beautiful. There are different kinds and classes of people in Rangoon. There are those who are struggling for basic needs, and those working as government personnel in different government departments. My family was middle class. My father sold car parts, my brother sold building supplies for homes, and my sisters sold betel nut.
I went to school in Rangoon. I went from twelve o’clock noon to four in the afternoon, and the teachers would take turns instructing us. But sometimes I would run away from school. On those days when my friends and I had some money, we would go to Inya Lake to swim and spend our time there.11 At the time when school was supposed to end, we would go back home.
My favorite subject in school was history. I didn’t like world history when I was young, but I liked learning about Burma’s history. We had to learn about Burmese dynasties in the past as well as the English and Japanese eras in Burma. I learned a little bit about the different ethnic groups of Burma in school, but if I wanted to learn more about different ethnicities, I had to read books from outside the country.
When we listened to adults speak about history, they would tell us conflicting things. I didn’t know what was true and what wasn’t. I was certain that the history about the kings was true, but when I learned the history of different ethnic groups of Burma, I realized that their stories were different than the ones I’d heard. I didn’t know what the truth was about different events that had happened throughout history. I wanted to learn what the truth really was.
OUR SOCIALISM WAS NOT LIKE REAL SOCIALISM
When I was eighteen years old, the uprising happened. I still wasn’t that interested in politics, but my enthusiasm grew from the anger I felt when I saw the military kill university students.
In 1988, Ne Win was the head of state and he was using the Burmese Way to Socialism to control the country.22 There was only one party in the whole country and he was the head of it. He ruled the country as a dictatorship—our socialism was not like real socialism.
There are many reasons that the protests happened in 1988. One of these is that the Ne Win government put everything under state ownership. They later declared the abolishment of some banknotes. They made an announcement that they would abolish the 35-kyat and 75-kyat notes. At the time, the 75-kyat note was the biggest note in Burma. The government had previously abolished the 100-kyat notes and replaced them with the 35-kyat and 75-kyat notes. But after the government gave out these replacement notes to the public, they declared the notes illegal and they didn’t produce anything new. We weren’t given any compensation or any new notes.33
People were angry. We faced problems, because although we had money, we could not use it any more. If you had that money, you could just boil it in water—it had no use. Some families and university students just burned it.
My family had quite a lot of money at the time, but after the government declared that we couldn’t use it any more, we just gave it to children to play with. To survive, my family could sell off our materials, like car parts and building supplies, but we could not sell a lot. For six months, we struggled. Like everyone, my parents said the government was really bad.
I believe the government abolished the money because of inflation. The government itself was not affected, because they gave out all those banknotes to the people before they abolished them—only the people were affected. Some were starving.
Discontent grew among the university students, because they no longer had enough money for tuition, transportation, or food. At the end of every month, their parents would send them money for tuition and daily expenses, but the students could no longer use it. Their discontent became the spark for the ’88 uprising.
THEY COULD CHALLENGE HIS POWER
I didn’t see the demonstrations in March, but I heard about what was happening because I was near Rangoon. The demonstrations started on March 13. The fighting actually started the day before, when students from the RIT—Rangoon Institute of Technology—got into a big fight with one of the sons of a BSPP official.44 The students were angry because one of them got injured in the fight, but the son of the party official was only detained for a moment by the police and then released. Because of this, the students went to protest on March 13. A clash broke out that night, and a student named Maung Phone Maw was killed.55
After those incidents, the students were angry. On March 16, students from both the RIT and Rangoon University marched together. The students were protesting government oppression, demanding that they investigate the death of the student and take action against the people who killed him.
Ne Win knew that if he didn’t oppress the students, they would be able to challenge his power. That day, the students started marching through Rangoon. When the students were at the bank of Inya Lake, riot police came and aggressively started cracking down on the protest. A lot of students started running into the lake to escape the brutal crackdown, and some of them drowned. The riot police also beat and killed some of the students.
Both male and female students were put inside extremely crowded trucks and transported away. I was in Insein Township and I heard one of the trucks as they went through the city to Insein Prison. The people inside were shouting, “We’re all dying inside the truck! We are students—we were unjustly arrested!” I heard they overcrowded that prison truck so much that some people could not breathe and they died of suffocation.66
After the March 16 protest, the government closed all of the universities and made all of the students return to their homes. The government didn’t want the students to assemble and form organizations.
Although it happened so long ago, we can still feel what happened that day, especially when we are standing at the banks of Inya Lake.
THE ’88 UPRISING
The protests continued throughout March, but everyone stayed quiet in April and May.
The university students left Rangoon and went back to their hometowns to spread news about what had happened. They talked to high school students about how the government had oppressed them. The students’ feelings were growing even stronger.
When the schools opened again in June, the students formed a demonstration camp at Rangoon University. Young people, including high school students and workers, joined the university students at the demonstration camp and went out on the streets together to protest. They were really angry at the police and wanted action to be taken against those who’d killed the students.
Some students didn’t go back to their hometowns and stayed in Rangoon so they could organize protests to bring down the Burma Socialist Programme Party. This was the start of the ’88 uprising.
Groups of students were marching, and people joined them. On June 18, 19, and 20 they were marching in the streets, but they were shot at on June 21 in Myaynigone. Some students were killed. More and more groups joined the uprising until everyone was involved. With the force of so many people, combined with their dissatisfaction, the ’88 demonstrations became a fight to bring down Ne Win’s government.
THE MILITARY SHOT DIRECTLY AT US
In August of 1988, the government started to really crack down.
I marched in Rangoon on August 9 and 10. At the front of the crowd there were monks and students giving speeches. The army and riot police were cracking down on the protesters. The army used guns and the riot police used batons and shields. The police marched and hit the students with the batons at close distance. When using the batons didn’t seem to be successful anymore—because some students were able to resist by throwing stones—the government switched the soldiers who were on duty. Then the army soldiers came close and shot at the students. The soldiers marched forward step by step, firing their guns.
Even though people were really angry, they became very afraid of the consequences for marching, because Ne Win had told the military not to shoot in the air, but to shoot directly at the people.
At the time of the demonstrations, I just helped in general with everything. For example, I took responsibility for providing water and food to demonstrators, and I looked for medicine if it was necessary.
We marched to the sections of the township that were not actively involved in politics yet. We marched in big crowds so that we could encourage the young people to be brave and come join the protests. If the number of people who were marching was small, I’d go around and organize other people to join with us. We also persuaded the women, and eventually they went on to form the women’s union and other organizations. Our forces became stronger.
In a lot of places around Rangoon, the soldiers shot and cracked down on the demonstrators. There was also shooting in other states, but it was the worst in Rangoon, because that’s where the government was located. Students were shot in front of everyone.
MY OWN DISCONTENT BEGAN THERE
The military coup happened on September 18, 1988. On that morning, the students were marching on the streets. The government cracked down and there were more casualties. We couldn’t go out on to the streets anymore. The army was deployed onto streets everywhere, and martial law and a curfew were declared. During the crackdown, General Saw Maung from the State Law and Order Restoration Council announced that the government would prepare for a multi-party democratic system, and that it would allow parties to register. Everyone was waiting to see what would happen, and eventually we saw political parties come out to register. But while organizing the parties, some of the party leaders were arrested.
I don’t know how other people felt at the time, but I was very angry—I felt like I was one of the students. My own discontent began there.
I DID NOT FEAR ANYTHING
You could say that the first time I started to have real political views and knowledge was during the uprising in 1988, when I started to listen to speeches by Min Ko Naing, the current leader of student groups in Burma.77 The All Burma Federation of Student Unions leaders elected Min Ko Naing unanimously as their leader because of his enthusiasm and strong spirit, his speeches and his capacity to lead.88 In the ’88 demonstrations, his persuasion, organization, and the firm path he took made him a really worthy leader.
The ABFSU has a long history. It was originally formed by General Aung San, and was involved in the struggle against colonialism.99 Under Ne Win’s regime, the ABFSU became active again, and the students were the first ones to fight against the government. Then Ne Win abolished the ABFSU and bombed their office. He targeted the student groups because they produced all of the educated people and politicians who resisted him.
After the military coup, there was no more marching and I had to become involved in the democracy movement in different ways. After high school, I could not continue my education and go on to university because all of the schools and universities were closed by the government in response to the uprising. I thought about what to do next. Many of the people who were involved in the protests were NLD members, so I contacted the party.1010 Older party members gave me books to read, so I began to have more ideas about politics.
I decided that I wanted to work with the NLD youth. I submitted an application to the NLD and I was accepted as a member and an organizer. After the coup, we needed to be part of organizations in order to increase our political power.
I started going to Daw Aung San Suu Kyi’s compound on January 1, 1989. We met at her compound every week and discussed young people’s issues and the political situation in Burma. When she had free time, she would tell the students to choose a discussion topic. At the time, there were about twenty or thirty students going there. Sometimes she told the young students about international and Burmese politics.
Sometimes I went to her compound once or twice in a week, and sometimes I slept there for two or three nights. I visited the compound for a few months and then I left in July, but I have many memories from there. What I cannot forget is how Daw Aung San Suu Kyi gave encouragement to the young people when we felt unhappy. She always steered us the right way.
Daw Aung San Suu Kyi has influenced me more than anyone else. She does what she believes in, and she never gives up. She always told us that the young people must take leadership roles and that other people must open a door for young people to bring changes in the country. That is my best memory.
At the time, my family was worried for me, because if you are involved in politics in Burma, if you work with the ABSFU or if you meet with Daw Aung San Suu Kyi, you will very likely be imprisoned. The more active you are, the more you’re at risk. They didn’t want me to be involved in politics. When I returned home in the evenings, my mother would say, “Come and stay with the family. Stop your political work.” She cried and explained her feelings to me, but I didn’t want to listen to her. I continued participating because I had hope and enthusiasm.
I did not fear anything at the time. Everyone has their own personal problems, right? I didn’t care about mine. I just wanted to be involved in politics because I wanted there to be change.
I THOUGHT THEY WOULD DESTROY MY FUTURE
Daw Aung San Suu Kyi was put under house arrest on July 20, 1989. At the time I was working at the NLD office in Insein Township, and I was responsible for youth and information. In August, I was arrested because I’d organized people to ask for Daw Aung San Suu Kyi’s and U Tin Oo’s release.1111 When they arrested me, I felt like the government destroyed my enthusiasm.
On that day, there were seventy young people in the office. We heard that the army would come to arrest us and we didn’t want everyone to get arrested, so we asked many of them to leave. But when the army surrounded our office, there were eight leaders still inside.
Four trucks full of soldiers came to the office. There were about thirty or forty soldiers. They came in the office and destroyed our signboards that asked for Daw Aung San Suu Kyi and U Tin Oo’s release. They also broke the NLD flagpole, they broke the windows, and they threw our papers on the floor. They insulted us and called us names like “motherfuckers.” They said, “Who are you? What are you doing? Even if I kill you, I won’t lose my position—I’ll get promoted.”
We replied, “We have an agreement with the government that we can have this office, so you cannot come in here violently and destroy it. If you want to arrest people, you must have the order to arrest, and then you can come in and make the arrests.” They closed the office and arrested all eight of us and put us in a truck.
At nineteen years old, I was the youngest activist. The other arrested NLD members were in their twenties, up to about forty years old. When they put me in the truck I wondered, What will happen to me? Maybe they will take me to interrogation, and then they will beat me or kill me. I was very worried—I was sweating, you know. I’d never talked about torture and punishment with other people before, but I knew that if I was arrested, I would be tortured and beaten.
I thought that I would face a worse situation than the other NLD members because I was the youngest. I thought I might be killed, or become crazy. I thought they would torture me until I became handicapped and destroy my future. I was also very worried about my mother, because I thought she would feel bad about my arrest and that the condition of her heart would deteriorate.
It was only forty-five minutes in the truck to the interrogation center at Insein Prison. The rest of the NLD members encouraged me at the time, saying, “Don’t worry, they will not kill us. They cannot kill us.” They tried to make me feel better. I felt encouraged when they said those words.
When we first arrived at the interrogation camp at Insein Prison, we were separated. Each person was handcuffed and taken to a separate room. My body and my head were tied to a post with a rubber rope. I had to squat down with my knees apart and my bottom in the air. Then they put a water container over my head. It had very little holes in it that water dripped through. The water dripped and dripped and dripped, hitting my head. After five minutes it felt like bricks were falling into my head—it was very painful, and hard to endure.
Under my feet there were two needles, so I had to squat down and put my feet out a little bit. If I put my feet down under my body, the needles could pierce my feet and go into my muscle. My thighs became very rigid and very hot because I had to squat down for so long. Sometimes I fell down to the floor and they kicked me.
They would ask me things like, “Did someone tell you to call for Daw Aung San Suu Kyi and U Tin Oo’s release, or was this your own idea?” I responded that our eight leaders decided by ourselves and that we implemented it. I didn’t mention the other seventy people involved so they wouldn’t be beaten. The eight of us took full responsibility. Other people may think that we were very courageous for answering their questions in this way, but we had to do it. We had to accept the difficulties we would experience. If we answered in any other way, other people would also have gotten in trouble.
I had to stay in the squatting position while they interrogated me. If I responded that I didn’t know or if I lied to them, they would ask me the questions over and over again until I gave them an answer.
I was in the interrogation camp for eight days.
SIX YEARS WITH HARD LABOR
After they finished with us at the interrogation camp, we were sent to the military court. I saw the other leaders there, and we were so happy to see that nobody had died.
When we arrived at the military courtroom, all the jury members were in military uniform. I was not able to speak at my trial, and we weren’t allowed to hire lawyers. I knew I had no hope of escape, no hope of being released. I had some friends who had faced trial in a military court, but they couldn’t ask questions or appeal and they weren’t allowed to have a lawyer. They just had to accept the sentence and go to jail. Because of this, I knew that I would be imprisoned.
The trial took only half an hour. After fifteen minutes, the judge stopped the trial for another fifteen minutes and then came out and opened the envelopes. He read everyone’s names. Then the judge said, “Under emergency law, you are charged with destroying the state.” Everyone was sentenced to six years with hard labor.
My mother came to the trial. As I was being taken away she came out to see me on the street. I was in the military truck and my mother was only two meters away. She mouthed to me, “How many years?” I raised six fingers. She seemed fine, and she asked, “Is that six months?” But when I said, “It’s six years,” she was so shocked she fell down. That is my most unforgettable memory of that day.
But I made myself calm down because I am working for change in my country, not for my personal benefit. If something happened to my mother, it would be devastating for me, but I would have to stay calm because I am working for other people. Other people are also suffering.
IT WAS LIKE MY MOUTH WAS SEWN SHUT
When I was put in prison, the officers said to us, “If you are in prison, you become a prisoner. No one is a political prisoner here. Every prisoner has to work. You have to do the work that we order you to do.” We replied, “We are here for our country. We didn’t commit any crimes or steal anything. We have our dignity and we cannot do this kind of work.”
When they tried to force us to work, we went on a hunger strike. There were forty-nine political prisoners. At first they told us that if we didn’t do the work, they would take us somewhere to meet with higher prison officials. But instead they put us in an isolated room that was dark and dirty, and they beat us.
One and a half months after our isolation started, we were allowed to see our families. When my family came, I went out of the room to see them. But there were two sets of iron bars separating me from my family. I had fifteen minutes to meet with them. I was allowed to talk about family, but not politics—if I talked about prison conditions then I would be put into the dark room again, or my family visits would be canceled. A prison worker accompanied my family during the visit and recorded what we were saying on a piece of paper. They do that for every political prisoner, but not for the other prisoners. I really wanted to say more to my family, but it was like my mouth was sewn shut.
When prison staff or officers got drunk, they would verbally abuse prisoners like me. We asked the other prison staff to take action against these abusive officers. We did another hunger strike, refusing to accept our meals if they didn’t take action against them. The hunger strike lasted four days. They put us in the dark room and kept telling us, “We will take action against those people who are not cooperating!” We talked to each other and decided not to oppose them any longer because people would die. The prison staff didn’t care what happened to us, so it would have been useless if one of us died in prison.
After twenty days in the dark room, we were taken to Tharrawaddy Prison in Pegu Division. We had spent over a month in Insein Prison.
WE HAVE TO RESIST THE TORTURE TOGETHER
Tharrawaddy Prison was strange to me. When I arrived there, they asked us to do hard labor in the prison compound. They made the prisoners smash stones, dig the earth, or carry waste from their toilets. There were two hundred political prisoners there, including older people who could not do hard labor. The prison officers said they would punish us if we did not do it, so all the younger political prisoners got together and ninety-seven of us decided to resist their orders. We knew that we could be beaten to death. I didn’t think about my family or my country at the time; I just thought, We have to work together. We have to resist the torture together.
When the prison worker came and told us to do the hard labor, we said we wouldn’t do it. We told him we wanted to meet the prison officer. Then the prison officer came to us and said, “Whoever is not willing to do hard labor, leave the room.” Ninety-seven of us left the room, and the prison officer said he would send a senior prison officer to meet with us.
We were separated into groups of five, and they put each group in a different cell. They asked us to sit with our hands on top of our heads. After more than an hour, around seventy prison staff came into the compound and poured water into our cells. It was December and it was very cold. They didn’t give us blankets—we would have to sleep on the cold, wet floor.
About half an hour after they poured the water into the cells, they took us outside and told us to sit on the ground with our hands on our heads again. The five of us sat in a line and three prison staff stood behind us and started beating and kicking us. They used canes and rubber sticks, and they beat our waists, our backs, and the back of our necks. Tharrawaddy Prison is in a field, so no one can hear when you scream or shout.
They beat us so much, and then they made us walk on our knees and elbows back to our rooms. When we got back to the room, ten of the prison staff came into our room and beat us again, for two or three hours. They said it was because we refused their orders. The prison officer told us, “It doesn’t matter if we beat you to death.”
They came and poured water into our rooms three times a day, morning, noon, and night. They beat us a lot—I had bruises on my body, and my waist was in pain as the weather got colder. People had other kinds of injuries, and some people were vomiting blood. One of my friends was disabled and used a cane to walk, but they tortured him just as badly as the rest of us. Another friend of mine was paralyzed from the waist down because of the beatings. Two months after they beat me, my lungs became swollen.
After beating us for the first two weeks, they lessened the punishment and forced us to stay in squatting positions for the rest of the month. They made us squat with our bottoms in the air and our hands on our heads for a long time. It was very hard—our legs got tired, and we had to keep our hands very straight on our heads so that our arms were straight over our shoulders. If we got tired and moved at all, they would say, “Which hand or leg is tired? Give me your hand or leg.” Then they would beat that hand or leg. Sometimes we would move around if we didn’t hear the guards’ footsteps outside, but sometimes we got caught. We had to sit in that position from 7 a.m. until we ate lunch at 11 a.m., then from 1 p.m. until 4 p.m., then again after dinner from 6 p.m. until 9 p.m. We weren’t allowed to talk to anyone.
The senior-level government people are responsible for this torture, because the prison staff has to follow their orders. The prison staff get promoted if they treat us badly, so sometimes they torture us even more seriously than they were ordered to. But we have continued to oppose the SPDC, because we want justice and freedom. The SPDC took power without laws and without a constitution. If we fear them, we are useless.
WE WROTE POEMS
When we were in the prison, we were not allowed to read or to write. All we could do every day was sit in the positions they told us to, eat, and sleep. We became so tired of our lives.
Sometimes we would talk about politics with our friends, and sometimes we would debate why we weren’t successful in ’88, but we were really tired every day. We wanted to read, and we wanted to know about what was happening in the country. Whenever my family or other families came to visit, they brought us cheroots, a kind of Burmese cigarette. The cigarettes were rolled into pieces of newspaper, so we would unroll the cigarettes and take out the newspaper pieces. Then we’d soak them in water to be able to see the letters and the words in the news. We’d read the clippings and discuss them with our friends. It was our only chance to read. But we could never know exactly what the real news was because the pieces were very small.
Sometimes we wanted to write poems, but we didn’t have any pens or paper, so we tried to make clay boards. During the day we were allowed to go out at bathing time for two hours. We’d take clay from next to the bathing area and make it flat. The walls inside the prison were painted with limestone, so we soaked the powder off the limestone with water and then we applied it to the clay. After that, we used nails to write on it.
My friends and I made a patrol for the security staff. If the security staff was coming, the patrol person would raise the alarm so we would all know, and we’d hide the clay boards.
We wrote poems, but if they saw that we were writing, they’d put us in the dark room and punish us. I wrote about my life experience. For example, I wrote about when I had to depart from my mother. Or sometimes if I remembered my girlfriends, I would write songs. After we wrote something, we’d share with our friends. We’d read our poems and songs to each other, but then we had to erase them.
MY FRIENDS STARTED TO WATCH ME
When I was in prison I heard my mother had been hospitalized. I felt very bad when I heard that, like I wanted to do something to myself. I thought that my mother’s health condition was because of me, and I felt I didn’t deserve to live any more. At that time, we were given blankets—I had plans to use mine to hang myself.
I told one of my friends about my feelings and asked him to do some things for me if I died. My friend felt very bad about what I wanted to do. I asked him not to tell other people, but he did. My friends started to watch me. Even when I was sleeping, some of them would stay awake to watch me. They told me that I had to think about how I was working for our country, how it was not bad to do political work. One of my friends came and encouraged me, “You didn’t do anything bad to your mother, so calm down. Killing yourself is against our religion. You are doing a good thing for the country.” All those things encouraged me and made me calm. Then my mother got better.
We all had a common problem while we were in prison. We suffered mental problems. we had to think a lot. Sometimes we felt happy, smiling and joking around with our friends or while remembering our past. But sometimes we would remember our mothers, and then we would cry. We thought a lot about our families and friends. We thought about the times when we were in school. So it created mental problems for us, you know?
THE WARMEST PLACE
I was released from prison in 1994. In Burmese we have a saying: “The day you are released from prison and the day you get married are the happiest times in your life.” But I was not happy when I was released from prison because I knew that a lot of my friends would still be in there.
When I was released from prison I could not sleep alone any more. At night, I would go and sleep with my mother, because being with her feels like the warmest and safest place in my life.
When I slept, I’d dream about my experience in the prison. Sometimes I would wake up suddenly and I would shout a lot. My family would come and say, “What happened to you?”
I also had problems when people shut doors loudly, because the prison staff usually slammed the doors of the cells when they locked them. When I was in my house and my nephew slammed the door very loudly, it would upset something in my mind. I would go and beat my nephew, even though he was very small. I can see how my mind was affected.
When I came out from prison, sometimes I didn’t want to talk to my friends. I would go and sit in an isolated or quiet place and I would think about my time in school, my friends, and my family. If we compare ourselves to ordinary people it’s not obvious, but we former prisoners suffer from mental problems. Some of us become addicted to drugs and alcohol.
Sometimes I thought about changing my enthusiasm for politics and just relaxing. I saw my friends who were fairly successful in business, and I thought about becoming like them. But it was only thoughts; I still had the passion to fight for change in my country.
I FELT FURTHER AND FURTHER OUTSIDE OF SOCIETY
In Burma, people discriminate against those who have been in prison. They talk about “the kind of people” who have been in there. When I walked around, my neighbors and anybody who wasn’t involved in politics would not talk to me. I thought, Why do they treat me this way? I went to prison for these people. It was very, very painful. Even now I always think about this.
I had one friend I’d been close with since we were kids. We went to school together and I would visit his home. His mother was very friendly, and his home felt like my home—I have very good memories of that. But when I got out of prison and went to visit him, his mother told me that even though I used to be friends with her son, I couldn’t visit her house because I had done something against the government. The military intelligence was following me and keeping track of what I did, so if I talked to her son, her son might get in trouble and could be arrested.
Sometimes I would think about my place in life. I was working for these people, but as time passed by I felt further and further outside of society. The main reason people act like this is fear. Fear is also the main reason we can’t get democracy—that’s why Daw Aung San Suu Kyi tells people to be free from fear. The young people in Burma are afraid of the government, and they dare not oppose it. But the government should be afraid of the young people, because throughout history young people have been a very powerful force. Young people should not be afraid.
All real thinking has been taken out from the youths’ brains. They only think, “We have to struggle, we have to get money, we have to eat.” If you go to Burma, you will see that a lot of children are illiterate. Children work as waiters, young boys sell lottery tickets and work as agents in soccer gambling. In Thailand, I’ve witnessed children from Burma working on construction sites; I’ve seen small girls sewing. I think these children should be going to school. But they don’t have opportunities to learn.
If the young people become educated, I believe that the new generation has the power to change the government—but it will take time. I’ve been working with young activists, and I know they have power and they care.
I RAN AWAY TO ANOTHER PLACE
I began to talk to my other friends who had been released from prison. We discussed doing something about politics, because the political situation at the time was very quiet, very calm. We wanted to hold a literature discussion so that people would read about politics.
As we were working to organize the literature discussion in December that year, two new activists that worked with us got arrested. Because of this, some of my friends also got arrested and the police went to my house and asked my mother about me. My mother told me not to come back home because I could be arrested too. My family gave me money to run away.
I ran away to Kawthaung, a town in the Tenasserim Division in southern Burma. I had no money left so I had to do some manual labor there. I wasn’t able to work as hard as the owner wanted, so he forced me to quit after the first day. This place was new for me and not like Rangoon; I felt very depressed. Then I went to Thailand to try and survive. It felt like a different world to me. In the beginning I got trafficked in Chumphon—I was sold to a manager of a pig farm, but I managed to escape after three weeks.
I spent thirteen years there, staying in many places—Ranong, Chumphon, Phuket, Nakhon, Phang Nga, and then Bangkok. I took jobs as they came because I had to survive.
I did some work in restaurants, hotels, fishing boats, and construction. I even started a business with a friend, making steel buckles, but we didn’t always make a profit. I did all those things just to be able to survive, but they didn’t give me any satisfaction.
I HAD MY COUNTRY, BUT I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO STAY THERE
I was drinking a lot throughout my time in Thailand. At the time I was very depressed. I missed home and I thought my life was useless. Now I’ve stopped drinking completely, but in the past my body needed the alcohol—it stimulated me.
Sometimes when I drank, I would remember my family and my colleagues in prison. In 2005, my father passed away. My auntie told me on the phone when I was in Bangkok, but it wasn’t possible for me to see my family. I had my family, my community, my country—but I wasn’t allowed to stay there. Living in Thailand, I felt like I was outside society.
The whole time I was in Thailand, I was very depressed by the situation in Burma. I was very disappointed with politics. Even though I had done a lot of political work, it hadn’t been successful. I wasn’t in contact with any of my former political colleagues from Burma who were staying in Thailand. I didn’t believe that change could come to Burma unless it was done by people who were inside the country, in direct contact with the government.
But in 2007, the Saffron Revolution was a big push; it revived my urge to join politics.1212
I was at a restaurant in Bangkok when I ran into one of my close friends from prison. The UNHCR had resettled him to the U.S. after he’d lived in the refugee camps, and he was visiting on his U.S. passport.1313 I had tried to avoid seeing him in Bangkok because I didn’t want to be asked, “What are you doing now? Are you working for your country?” But we started talking and he encouraged me to do political work again. We discussed politics over three days, and we talked about the politics inside and outside Burma. He said, “The young people are working for politics in Burma. They are trying their best, so we shouldn’t avoid this—we should cooperate.”
My friend had an office in Mae Sot, on the Thailand–Burma border, and he told me to go there and start working in politics again. When I arrived in Mae Sot I saw some of my other activist friends and I felt very encouraged. The Saffron Revolution was happening at that time—it was the biggest demonstration in Burma since ’88. We discussed the revolution, and since we shared so many ideas, we decided that we would help set some activities in motion.
Even though it was very dangerous for me to go to Burma, I wanted change in my country. I had hope that the Saffron Revolution marches would bring change, so I decided to go back and join the protest.
WE WOULD TRY AGAIN
When I was at the border checkpoint between Mae Sot and Myawaddy, I tore my passport apart and then I crossed the water into Burma.1414 It was my first time returning to Burma in thirteen years. Although I expected the worst, I decided I would just face whatever happened to me.
I left Thailand on September 24 and I arrived in Rangoon on September 26. I didn’t go and see my family because my name was on the government blacklist. The blacklist has all the names of people the government considers to be destroyers of the state, guilty of causing riots and unrest. I could have been arrested if I went back to my home.
I had contacted my friends to get involved in the uprising, but the military was already cracking down heavily and arresting people. People couldn’t go out in the street. I was sad that people were not in the streets any more, but I was not disappointed. I thought if we could not do it this time, then we would try again. I couldn’t join in the protest movement above ground then, because I knew some of my friends had been arrested, and information threatening my security would leak from them. So I retreated. Some of my friends were in hiding too. We discussed how to reorganize the scattered democracy groups.
I helped organize with the people I knew from before. I helped people avoid arrest and suggested places for people to hide. I was also trying to connect the people I knew with other activist networks, to make sure they all worked together. Then I set up my own network with our young people.
When I went back to Rangoon, it took me one month to look for and join my friends who had gone into hiding. I rented an apartment there because I wanted to see if the situation would change, but nothing did, so I spent three months figuring out how to travel around Rangoon safely. I also rented three or four apartments that my friends and I could stay in to avoid arrest. I stayed in Rangoon from September until December.
I returned to Thailand in December for a training about leadership and nonviolence. I saw some of my old friends again and we discussed some of the next activities that we would launch inside Burma.
I continued to work with other activists to help politically active youth have the opportunity to join the revolution. We helped with food and rented safe houses and phones for them. We wanted the momentum of the Saffron Revolution to continue. We didn’t start another organization to do this, we were just organizing people and supporting people in our networks.
A NEW WAVE
I went back to Burma in the first week of January 2008 to plan some special events for Independence Day and to do campaigns on Union Day with Generation Wave.1515 Generation Wave is an organization of young activists that had initially been set up after the Saffron Revolution. I wasn’t involved with them when the organization first formed, but one of my old activist friends told me I should work with them because I was young. The name is Generation Wave because we already had the ’88 generation, and we wanted to create a new wave, a new generation with powerful force. We decided to organize a protest that would happen in March, so we contacted our friends in Rangoon to organize with them.
But when we were ready for the protest, some of our friends got arrested, so we had to go into hiding in Rangoon Division. Zayar Thaw, a hip-hop singer in Burma, was arrested, and a lot of the Generation Wave members were arrested too. So I had to avoid arrest and went into hiding. When my friends got arrested, our force was brought down.
My friend whom I lived with got arrested when he went to meet with the ABFSU. He wasn’t known as a Generation Wave member, but when he was tortured at the detention camp, he leaked some information. My friend couldn’t resist the torture and revealed information about the protest and where we were living.
When we got the news about this, we had to leave our apartments. The plan for a protest in March was cancelled. We called all our friends and sent them to stay in places very far from Rangoon; we couldn’t tell anyone where we sent them. I ran away to Pegu Division and stayed there for a month.
During that time, I had to move around. In the morning, I might be in one place, but that night I would sleep in another place. I contacted some friends I had worked with before. The Saffron Revolution anniversary was approaching, so my friends and I discussed what we should do to prepare. I couldn’t go to see my friends, so I contacted them on the phone. I also talked to groups like the ABFSU so that we could cooperate with each other. I was very careful not to be arrested, because I knew that if I ended up in prison I would face the worst possible situation.
Then I returned to Rangoon in April, and the members of Generation Wave came together. In May, Cyclone Nargis happened, and we went to help the Nargis victims with food, water, and accommodations. We continued helping until July, and then we started to plan a demonstration for September 2008. In July, I went back to Thailand for a training with some other Generation Wave members. After it finished, we returned to Burma, held trainings locally, and increased our membership.
I work with Generation Wave because I want young people to have new ways of thinking and taking action. I came into politics when I was young; sometimes young people want to do something, but adults become a barrier for them. Our country’s situation has become worse; it is not like other countries. Everything is very restricted, even if you just want to go from here to there. I was nineteen when I went to prison and twenty-four when I got out, but I still had to promise my mother that I would be home by 7 p.m.
Our young generation has new ideas that should be carried out without the control of older people. We want to move our lives and our country forward with new ideas and freedom.
“ARE YOU KYAW ZWAR FROM GENERATION WAVE?”
We discussed our plans for a September demonstration with monks and with the ABFSU; we needed to join together to have more force. At around 9 or 10 p.m. in early September, I got a phone call from a man whom I had already met about the demonstration. His group had a lot of members, and we needed their help in launching the event. He wanted to meet the next day. Even though I was feeling uncomfortable, the next morning I went to meet him at a tea shop.
I told three Generation Wave members to come and watch our meeting from a distance. The man was already there when I arrived. When I ordered a coffee, three people came up to me from behind, and four people approached me from the front. They asked, “Are you Kyaw Zwar from Generation Wave?” They already knew who I was; I couldn’t lie. They were plainclothes police who had been sitting at the coffee shop, pretending to sell newspapers and pretending to be waiters. My friends saw me get arrested. The man who called me to arrange the meeting must have been tortured a lot in prison—the police made him do it.
I was arrested the next day, and then I was sent to an interrogation center for a month. When I was in the interrogation center, the prison staff tortured me to get information on Generation Wave, and on who was involved in the protest. I didn’t tell them anything important. I was beaten, and I endured the pain. They didn’t give me any food or water. I had to drink water from the toilets.
Now we train the young people in Generation Wave how to escape at the last minute, and how to avoid the police. Even if we are very friendly, we don’t tell each other where we live because then somebody could leak that information if they were arrested.
I was taken to court for my trial. I was charged with crossing the border illegally, having contact with illegal organizations, and forming a group, through establishing Generation Wave. It wasn’t a military courtroom and I was allowed to have a lawyer and witnesses, but the prosecution also had a lawyer and witnesses, and I lost.
In October, I was sent to Insein Prison again. On the day when I was brought to the prison, my family came to meet me. “We don’t know what you are doing,” said my mother. “Son, I am only able to see you when you’re in prison.”
I got sick during my second time in prison. It was like malaria, but it was just a really high fever. If I asked for medicine in the prison, they only gave paracetamol, so I had to ask my family to send medicine. There were some political prisoners who were doctors, so they told me what medicine I needed.
My second time in prison, I wasn’t asked to do forced labor and I was allowed to go out of isolation for an hour every day. The political prisoners were still very united. We read books and we discussed Burma’s current political situation.
SOMETIMES WE THINK WE’RE CRAZY
I was released in September 2009. I saw that my friends all had happy families. I felt really discouraged, and I thought, I don’t have a family. I have nothing now. But I tried to calm myself by remembering that I was doing this work for my country. If I want to do this kind of work, I need to forget other things. Even if there is someone I love, I have to stay far away. I need to make sacrifices.
If Burma gained democracy, I would not stay away from my family and live in another country. I would establish my life, do things for myself personally. But it is difficult to think about how I would do this. Ever since I got involved in politics, I haven’t been able to think about anything else—it has changed me. I can’t think about the future any more.
Sometimes we think we’re crazy. But we have hope, and we continue working toward our goal. I’ve met other politicians, our brothers, who have forgotten their goals and are living a relaxing life. But I cannot leave this work because I want my friends to be free like the young people in Singapore, for example. Young people there have freedom, they can pursue their education. But not my friends. My friends are in the prisons. Now I sit here, in Thailand—I am free, and I want my friends to be free as well. That’s why I cannot leave this work. I want to fight for my friends.
Since I am forty years old, I cannot be a member of Generation Wave any more—the age limit is actually thirty-five years old. But I have plans to continue working as an activist. We don’t accept the constitution, so we will continue to fight against it. The government will do what it wants in the 2010 elections, so we need to fight against it all the time.
I haven’t had a chance to see my family, and when my father died I could not go to his funeral. I have been away from my family for so long that I am not sure what my mother is like any more. People like me, who are more active and want change, we suffer the most—the government shakes our lives the most.
1 Inya Lake is in Rangoon. On its banks are the elite neighborhoods that contain Daw Aung San Suu Kyi’s compound and the late general General Ne Win’s residence.
2 The Burmese Way to Socialism was Ne Win’s plan to build the Burmese nation post-independence. For more, see pages 461-463 of the “A Brief History of Burma” in the appendix.
3 On September 5, 1987, Ne Win announced Burma’s second demonetization, taking 25, 35, and 75 bank notes out of circulation. The official reason for the demonetization was to fight inflation and black market activities. For more about Burma’s demonetization, see appendix pages 463-464.
4 The Burma Socialist Programme Party was the only legal political party in Burma from 1962 to 1988. The party congress met periodically and repeatedly “elected” Ne Win as its chairman. For more on the Burma Socialist Programme Party, see appendix pages 462-463.
5 Ko Maung Phone Maw was murdered by the military on his school’s campus while participating in pro-democracy protests. His death was the catalyst for the 1988 popular uprising.
6 Forty-one students suffocated to death in the van. This incident became a lightning rod for the student democracy movement.
7 Min Ko Naing is a well-known political dissident who entered Burma’s political arena as a prominent leader of the student uprising in the late 1980s. He was formerly chairman of the All Burma Federation of Student Unions (ABFSU), and is currently being held in prison for his role in the 2007 Saffron Revolution.
8 The All Burma Federation of Student Unions traces its roots back to the 1930s struggle for independence, but reemerged during the 1988 uprising under the leadership of Min Ko Naing. For more on the ABSFU and students’ role in Burmese politics, see the appendix pages 463-467.
9 General Aung San is Burma’s independence hero who led the fight against British rule. He is the father of Nobel Peace Prize winner Daw Aung San Suu Kyi. For more on Aung San, see the “A Brief History of Burma” section of the appendix, pages 459-460.
10 The National League for Democracy is the party of Nobel Prize winner Daw Aung San Suu Kyi and former Tatmadaw Commander-in-Chief U Tin Oo. The NLD won Burma’s 1990 elections. For more on the NLD see the appendix pages 465-468 and 473.
11 U Tin Oo is the deputy leader of the NLD and the former Commander-in-Chief of the Burmese military.
12 The Saffron Revolution was a large, monk-led uprising that took place in August and September of 2007. For more on the Saffron Revolution, see appendix page 468.
13 The Office of the UN High Commissioner for Refugees is a United Nations organization with headquarters in Geneva, Switzerland. The primary mandate of UNHCR is the protection of refugees and finding durable solutions for refugees, including assisting in the voluntary repatriation of refugees to their home country, integration into the country of asylum, or resettling refugees to a third country.
14 Myawaddy is a town on the Burma side of the Moei River, which divides Thailand and Burma. It is one of several official border-crossing points between the two countries.
15 Union Day is celebrated on the anniversary of the signing of the Panglong Agreement, an agreement between General Aung San and a number of Burma’s ethnic groups that they would work together in an independent, federated Burma. For more on the Panglong agreement see page 460 of the “A Brief History of Burma” in the appendix.