THERE BUT FOR… (15 JUNE 1925)

… and on past the bazaar. Headlong slither

down from Tartar hands

of flailing, glittering, wet, alive

merchandise –

fat fish that lay there choking

until a wiry Greek,

with an instant, glittering strike,

knifed open their guts.

The day warmed up – only just, firstly –

then started to scorch.

The white-panama leisure crowd filed

down to the beach.

In its own grease bubbled to doneness

the first cheburek;

grease gazed at with longing eyes

by the first-come chap.

And she sat there a long time, lonesome

in the doctor’s anteroom.

The hide on the sofa was cold,

but hers burned,

the lino gleaming, subtle-sharp the hurting,

then instant mist.

The doctor Jewish, Russian the nurse.

The crowd was Armenians,

Turks, photographers, Mrs-spiv mummies,

old queens, and layabouts.

Sunburn gleaming through buttonless

shirts and bleached pants.

Pushing and staring and finger-pointing,

pleading ‘Hold on, pleeze!

Hey, yong lady – so preetty,

so yong she ees!’

In unwilling gobs leaving memory – but still surely –

the heavy day inched

down into the black depths of the Black Sea,

making no splash.

Like cotton wool, the evening gloom mopped up,

moved off the mountainous shore,

then subtly the sunset blood seeped

into the Bosphorus,

and on to rapacious Jaffa, smoky Pireus,

and fatted Marseilles.

Glittering constellations and wet seas

whirled like a carousel.

Riding a round-backed dolphin billow to billow

by moon’s silver and grey,

into his conch there blew and blew

a phantom boy.