Contents

• Dedication
• Foreword Pete Rollins
• Introduction
• Part I. Sex: The Biological
• 1. Comfort
• 2. Where Dreams Go to Die
• 3. To Be Invisible
• 4. Under the Waves
• 5. My Younger Self
• 6. The Drip-Feed of Erotic Data
• 7. Thoughts on Death
• 8. A Theology of Kissing
• Part II. Drugs: The Experiential
• 9. A Box I’ve Never Opened
• 10. Play Fucking Loud
• 11. Migraines and Melancholy (Or Knowing One’s Darkness)
• 12. Creative Chaos
• 13. Dressing the Sacred
• 14. Dirt
• 15. Skulls
• 16. Capitalism on Drugs (Or Our Love Affair with Non-Permanent Pharmacological Lobotomies)
• 17. My Own Judas
• 18. Tattoos
• 19. Love Is a Losing Game
• 20. The Sound of Failure
• 21. Shoes
• 22. When Tokyo Was Still the Future: Why I Travel
• 23. Orvieto
• Part III. Art: The Creative
• 24. I Missed Punk, but I Got the Message
• 25. Collage, Bricolage, Assemblage
• 26. Elvis’s Belly
• 27. Fallen Angels
• 28. An Elegy for Leonard Cohen
• 29. When Is a Painting Not a Painting?
• 30. Twombly
• 31. Bowie and Me
• Part IV. Religion: The Spiritual
• 32. The Other Woman
• 33. A Theological Life
• 34. On Smugness
• 35. A Shout
• 36. Between Carnival and Lent
• 37. Dead Gods
• 38. Hello, Darkness
• 39. Losing Jesus
• 40. Notes on the Death of God
• 41. Religion and a Rabbit’s Foot
• 42. Apocalypse Will Blossom