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Index
Cover
Title Page
Copyright Notice
Contents
Dedication
Author’s Note
Pronoun
The Name Is Brendan
Wrestling Didn’t Always Suck
I Know What He’s Saying
My Brain Takes Me Freaky Places
The Night I Was a Girl
Opportunity Knocks
Three Years Ago
In Ceramics
Centering the Clay
At Home with Trick-or-Treaters at the Door
The Santa Ana Wind
A Year Later
How Do You Know When the Time Is Right?
Gloom Seeps Over Different Expectations
Some Truths Don’t Go Over So Well
Last Night’s Mistake
After Vanessa Dropped Me Off
Nightmare
Thank God for Dry Toast
Off the Bus
When I’m Not at School
The Bus Roars Away
Confused? Hardly.
I Like a Challenge
A Change of Weather
So What if Last Night Didn’t Go as Planned?
Lucky
In the Gym
Vanessa Snags My Water Bottle
At Home After Dinner
When I Was a Little Kid
When That Word Bursts
Glass Shatters
Sometimes the Real World Hurts
I Pray to God
All the Next Day
A Couple Days Later
College Applications, Round One
Wednesday After Conditioning
Mama’s Sweet Corn Stuffing
It’s the American Way
You Know It’s True
At the Smiths’
No Guidebook
Sex Maniac
The Next Morning
Things Look Different
I’m Bothering Julie
10 Hours Later
Busy Schedules
Saturday’s Tournament
Because Going Home Is Such a Ride
Sunday Night at Andy’s House
Online Before Bed
The Second-to-Last Present I Got
I Showed Up at Tía Rosa’s
Gonna Ignore Those Bad Manners
Back at the Center
Because Honestly
O Christmas Tree.
Home from the Ordeal
Early Christmas Present
And Speaking of Perfection
“Phewie, That Stinks!”
Hormones
Roger Was Man of the House
Sunday Afternoon
Crisis Averted.
Bowling
Next Day, Shopping with Andy Sucks
My Problem
Satin and Silk and Lace and Perfume
Christmas Day
Holiday-Schedule Bus
Could He Be Less Romantic?
Back at My House
Crying into My Pillow
At Bedtime
The Next Day
New Year’s
Frankie’s Back from Cancún
Screw the Rest of the World
Brendan’s Sick on New Year’s Eve
I Pretend
A Forbidden Jewel
But Cinderella Perfection Can’t Last
Because of Frankie
Only Friend I Still Have
Tonight the House Is Quiet.
No Hope in Hell of Normal
A Simple Solution
Final Day of Winter Recess
Gorgeous Sunday
Three Years Ago
Sundays Like Today
Today Was Just Another Crappy Day
In the Parking Lot
On the Wall
The Big Question
I Can Tell
Driving to Brendan’s
On the Way Home
Dr. Do-Little’s Office
I’m Lonely Without Brendan
We’re Practicing Takedowns
When I Have Time
When (or if) to Disclose Birth Gender
I Pass Really Well
Nothin’ to Be Ashamed Of
It Turns Out
Dateless, Friendless on a Friday Night
“People, People, Settle Down”
“Quiet, People!”
In the Bleachers
Thank God
The Closer Finals Get
My Insides Are Roiling
Mom and Claude the Interloper
I’m Finishing Homework
I Think of THAT Night
Next Day’s a Minimum Day
I Get Off a Stop Early
It’s the Shy Kid from the Bus
Q Is for Question
Funny Timing That Boys’ Night Out
Before Bed
Tuesday After Practice
Heeding the Call
Living That Part in Secret
Thank You, God, for Everything
Five O’clock, the Most Beautiful Hour
How a Girl Gets a Reputation
Brendan’s Mom and Stepdad Leave
Brendan Opens the Door
Brendan Pulls Me Inside
My Heart
Guilt Is Beach Sand
1 a.m.: The Phone Rings
“No Idea What to Do,”
Angel Was So Pissed Last Night
Hazardous
“What the Fu—”
Will He Tell?
Awake All Night
Brendan Chase Is a Fag
No Idea What I’m Going to Say
Even Predictable Explosions Are Scary
Before Econ the Next Day
Flannigan Stops Me
Vanessa’s Car Idles Near the Bus Stop
You Know That Feeling of Falling
There’s Always a Choice?
I Drive Home Numb
All Vanessa Said
Not Me
Surprise! Happy Birthday!!!!
Three Years Ago Today
Veronica Says
In the Morning
At Breakfast
Brendan and I
I Have a Question
The Night Before Wrestling Finals
There Are Phases
Nerves at the Sight of a Sweet Bungalow
I Keep Messing Up
Weigh-In for Wrestling Finals
Forty-Five Minutes Later
What Really Has Changed?
Monday Morning Announcements
I Leave School Without a Pass
No One at Home
Don’t Do Sadness
From Sucky to Worse
I’m Tired
I Have My First Fight
My Boyfriend Won
Angel’s Message
Asking Myself the Biggest Question
Lillian Bruner’s Having a Party
It Sucks Even More
Sunday Night Dinner
After Dinner
Tiny White Torpedoes
No Note
Midnight
I’m Leading Her
Not Dying
Instead
We Meet Down at Mono Cove
“Gender Fluid”
Teacher In-Service Day
Waiting Around
We Go Back to Brendan’s
I Take the Bus to Willows
“The Truth Will Set You Free”
Angel Takes Off
There Is No Tidy Ending for Someone Like Me
Acknowledgments
Resources
Further Reading
Copyright
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