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Contents

1. Title Page
2. Dedication
3. Epigraph
4. Foreword
5. How to use this book
6. My story
7. Acknowledgements
8. Introduction
9. Hope
10. Family
11. A hand to help
12. A mother’s love
13. Charlotte
14. Dad
15. My willow tree
16. Other relationships
17. I miss you
18. I’ll be
19. Dancing demons
20. The rays of the sun
21. The smile
22. Window pain
23. Zoe
24. Freedom
25. Illness
26. In my head
27. What if…?
28. My evil masterpiece
29. The plum
30. An invasion
31. An unwanted intruder
32. The silent scream
33. From a sufferer to a sufferer
34. Pure
35. Beauty not the beast
36. Ana
37. The nearest star
38. Behind the mask
39. Dear Suicide
40. Emotions
41. Monster on my back
42. Loneliness
43. Hell in paradise
44. With angels you fly
45. Glad you came
46. My guest: Anxiety
47. The voice
48. Society
49. Welcome to society
50. What is ‘normal’?
51. Amity
52. Cyber friends
53. Peer pressure
54. Life
55. The unknown
56. Keep me in reality
57. Covid 19
58. My medicine
59. Five minutes
60. A filtered world
61. Bittersweet
62. The bigger picture
63. Recovery
64. Game over
65. Sink or swim
66. The answer
67. Finale
68. Accept to understand
69. Resources
70. Index
71. Copyright