Contents

Foreword

Acknowledgments

Author’s Note

Prelude

The Beginning

As Sick as a Person Can Be

The Patient Who Stopped My Heart

A Life Turned Upside Down

Crazy in Love

A Rock in the Face of a Storm

The Importance of Kind Thoughts

The Exorcising of Demons

A Sack Full of Stones

The Hospital Roller Coaster

The Power of Determination

Hepburn and Tracy

Random Thoughts in a Dark Room

A Week Is a Very Long Time

A Mother’s Son

The Red Assassin

The Power of a Letter

A Glimpse of Nancy’s Garden

A Kick to the Groin

A New Perspective

A Half-Full Glass of Lemonade

As Close to Heaven as You Can Get

Cherishing Each Day as It Comes

Only in the South

Playing the Waiting Game

Beauty Is in the Eye of the Beholder

It’s All or Nothing

The Answer Is “Super”

Laughter Is the Best Medicine

No Worries

Anger Isn’t a Bad Thing

A Day Full of Promise

A Day of Less Promise

Singing in the Sunlight

Christmas in July

A Trip to Normal

I Yam What I Yam

A Tip of the Hat to Chemotherapy

Parting Is Such Sweet Sorrow

Donuts and the Nadir

An All-Too-Familiar Question

A Wait Well Worth It

It’s Party Time

The Numbers Don’t Add Up, Part 1

The Numbers Don’t Add Up, Part 2

It’s as Clear as Mud

The Details Are a Little Muddy

The Large and Small of It All

That’s a Lot of Stuff

New Stories from Cancerland

Smiles All Around

The Perfect Vacation

Two Is Better than One

In Search of Mecca

Perfection Is in the Numbers

The Many Kindnesses of Those around Us

Free as a Bird

Nectar of the Gods

Another One Bites the Dust

Laughter Is the Best Medicine

When Final Really Is Final

Merriment in a Dark Time

A Journey of Daydreams

The Last Supper

The Transplant Shuffle

Luck Is Believing You’re Lucky

Pleasant Dreams, Sweetheart

From This Day Forward

The One Redeeming Quality of a Crocodile

The Angels Were with Us Last Night

Nancy Has Begun Drinking Again

The Two Unspoken Words

The Engraftment Blues

One More Bite of Oatmeal

A Real Reason to Give Thanks

A Jumbo Pillbox

Ask and You Will Get Answers

The Merry-Go-Round Goes Round

Balancing on a Tightrope

So You Think You Can Dance?

The Best Christmas Ever

Stepping Up Isn’t Hard to Do

A Holiday Miracle

A Christmas to Remember

Warts and All

Tonight’s the Night

The New Normal

Sharks in the Water

A Single Blade of Grass

A Shining Light

An Age-Old Ritual

The Mother of Good Fortune

Thoughts on Kissing a Fashionista

The Real Deal

The Best Gift of All

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

This Isn’t Our First Rodeo

The Best Laid Plans

The Essence of Happiness

A Toast to Regularity

A Very Important Anniversary

Hope instead of Uncertainty

Such a Long, Long Way

A Great Day for a Haircut

Growing Up Is Hard

Christmas in April

Transplant + Two

Castles by the Sea

Conclusion

Finale

About the Authors

About the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society