I used to live there, but that was
Where was I in the world? I’m not so certain…
Whisper, fister. Call out the cold from the body. Call…
Was it always?—What do you mean? Infanta asks. I mean,…
Black leaves. The notebooks filling with ash. The limbs of…
Assembling, while dissembling. How strange to write
Dissembling the assembling night. The long ridge of stark hills,…
It was the night of tangerines. I mean, do you…
Sleepless, sleepless, sleepless. Not again, again;
Infanta calls from the islands where she’s working on “the…
Shattered, shattered, shattered. There are so many ways
It was late May when I began the journal, a…
I’m getting worried now about the movie they’re making; you…
Where were you all that light ago, busy as a…
Focus fogs & fails. I had come, it seemed, to…
Who am I? (Who was I; who will I be?)—The…
…Adesso transgresso…There I was again, entering the country
Assembling the dissembling. The pieces so familiar, & polished with…
“It was a day as noir as night.” My own…
Easter morning, another Easter morning in a life I’ve reckoned…
The night was all fugue & moon. Remember that trip…
Always on the road (or so it seems): the jump…
OK. I’ve had it up to here with Ted &…
Well, Jan says, not looking up once from the page…
I had lived so long in the black room
I suppose retrieval from afar is best. Long distance, picking…
The voice, a woman’s, says, “You self-absorbed prick!” & I…
Mask. Ghost before, ghost behind, ghost beyond. The mask. The…
Somebody says, I know you as I know myself, because…
Then it all comes down to this, doesn’t it? Fucked-up…
Well, you won’t believe this, but they’ve started to shoot…
Then I was given the Path of Green Tea. It…
I hardly know where to begin. The constant harvest of…
Consider the ease of release. This really sweet guy Bill…
Driving alone south of Market Street, I see the place…
I grew up in Peckinpah’s valley, the brutal San Joaquin,…
(Embroidered silk of the freedom pouch:) Tibetan tortoise carved of…
The silent infinite lifted from the white labyrinth;
Sometimes, even the moving target needs to still itself, until…
It may be time to abandon my essay on “The…
What a long eleven months it’s been. The movie’s in…
I’m kicking back in Charles’s office just watching the February…
Baby Jaguar. Olmec rains. Inner time & sacrifice. Mask of…
Sooner or later it all comes down to faith. Before…
I couldn’t take it. Twenty minutes into the first reel,…