Contents

      Acknowledgments

  1. Reliving the Past

  2. Chasing Peers’ Acceptance

  3. Wanting to Control

  4. Experiencing New Emotions

  5. Laboring for Love

  6. Trying Out Churches

  7. Celebrating What Exactly?

  8. Deciding to Quit

  9. Becoming Someone Else

10. Reaping No Benefits

11. Planting Hopeful Seeds

12. Seeing the Blessings

13. Passing Whichever Test

14. Putting Up Decorations

15. Loving Every Part