Contents
Dedication
Contents
Prologue
Chapter 1: Wednesday, 27 July 2016
Chapter 2: Past Engagement
Chapter 3: #AHundredWays
Chapter 4: A Good Hard Edit
Chapter 5: Retirement
Chapter 6: American Psycho
Chapter 7: Google ‘Helen Owen News’
Chapter 8: Leather Notebook
Chapter 9: Intermission
Chapter 10: Brighton 1979
Chapter 11: Seelenlos
Chapter 12: Women Writers’ Guild Awards
Chapter 13: The Lodger
Chapter 14: A Work Thing
Chapter 15: Bleach, Lemon and Death
Chapter 16: They Shouldn’t Be Much Longer
Chapter 17: Don’t Fuck the Boss
Chapter 18: A Little Charity
Chapter 19: Whatever Is Necessary
Chapter 20: Amy’s Decision
Chapter 21: Did You Say a Million?
Chapter 22: I’d Forgotten His Ways
Chapter 23: Publish This
Chapter 24: Because You Owe Me
Chapter 25: So You Think I Should Publish It?
Chapter 26: I Think They Cleared Your Desk
Chapter 27: You Wouldn’t Say That
Chapter 28: This Is My Inheritance
Chapter 29: Sorry, but It’s Too Hot in Here for Clothes
Chapter 30: Too Good for Them
Chapter 31: You Know Me Better Than Anyone
Chapter 32: He Couldn’t Tell
Chapter 33: Not Like Hers
Chapter 34: We Tried Our Best
Chapter 35: Tuesday, 13 September 2016
Chapter 36: Nothing to Be Ashamed of
Chapter 37: Max’s Notes I
Chapter 38: It’s Perfectly Fine as It Is
Chapter 39: All the Light Had Gone Out
Chapter 40: The Truth Is Just Fucking Fine
Chapter 41: Daniel on the Road
Chapter 42: Max’s Notes II
Chapter 43: Sometimes It’s Hard to Let Go
Chapter 44: One Hundred Per Cent behind the Book
Chapter 45: Max’s Notes III
Chapter 46: Malcolm Taylor Is Here
Chapter 47: Liam Messages Amy
Chapter 48: A Bridge Too Far
Chapter 49: Amy Messages Max
Chapter 50: How Are the Boys?
Chapter 51: In the Newspaper
Chapter 52: Try Writing about It
Chapter 53: Nothing
Chapter 54: Who Were You to Him?
Chapter 55: Just One More Drink?
Chapter 56: You’ve Been Sleeping
Chapter 57: Retail Therapy
Chapter 58: Have You Written Your Speech?
Chapter 59: Booker Night
Chapter 60: More Than Any Book
Chapter 61: Don’t Do This
Chapter 62: The Notebook
Chapter 63: Knowing What We Know
Chapter 64: But Who Would Do Such a Thing?
Chapter 65: Phone Message
Chapter 66: Max’s Article
Chapter 67: All Too Human
Epilogue
Further Reading
Acknowledgements
About the Author
Praise
Copyright
Guide
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