I steal and pillage your pale skin

While enjoying the short escape from these chains

Chains long years that tie my spirit lost in the meander of the past,

Where life I left and life waits for me.

Beyond the curtain of this perfume, beyond the warmth of these limbs,

beyond the smoky breath of these breaths:

that is my place, the paradise that I covet.

You have no power over me with your femininity,

that you give me loath, yet you tremble in my arms,

drunk of unexpected pleasure.

You’re wrong and still wrong, moaning frightened by the imminent danger.

I know what I’m carving, you know that it’s not you.

Faint illusion fueled by empty passion, you should deny your hope.

I know who I want, you know that it’s not you.

My madness enchants and conquers you. Yours makes you falls, blind in the dark.

I keep my light, that doesn’t belong to you.

I don’t belong to you. I belong to the past,

Where life I left and life waits for me.

R. Vera

Index

FIRST PART

PROLOGUE

CHAPTER 1

CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 3

CHAPTER 4

CHAPTER 5

CHAPTER 6

CHAPTER 7

CHAPTER 8

CHAPTER 9

CHAPTER 10

CHAPTER 11

CHAPTER 12

SECOND PART

CHAPTER 13

CHAPTER 14

CHAPTER 15

CHAPTER 16

CHAPTER 17

CHAPTER 18

CHAPTER 19

CHAPTER 20

CHAPTER 21

CHAPTER 22

CHAPTER 23

CHAPTER 24

CHAPTER 25

CHAPTER 26

CHAPTER 27

CHAPTER 28

CHAPTER 29

CHAPTER 30

CHAPTER 31

CHAPTER 32

THIRD PART

CHAPTER 33

CHAPTER 34

CHAPTER 35

CHAPTER 36

CHAPTER 37

CHAPTER 38

CHAPTER 39

CHAPTER 40

CHAPTER 41

CHAPTER 42

CHAPTER 43

CHAPTER 44

CHAPTER 45

CHAPTER 46

CHAPTER 47

CHAPTER 48

CHAPTER 49

EPILOGUE

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS