Contents

Cover

Preface

1. Joyful and Lovely

2. Dark Outside

3. Five Months

4. The Only Battle

5. Concrete

6. Figuring It Out

7. Like a Disney Movie

8. Ray of Light

9. M&Ms

10. When You Smile

11. In the End

12. The Joker

13. Vessel

14. Help

15. A Little Guidance

16. Friday Night

17. Someone Else’s Story

18. Ryan Gosling

19. The Wizard of Oz

20. Sap

21. Ridiculous Timing

22. About Time

23. The Movie I’m In

24. The Bridge

25. Some Kind of Hero

26. A Sliver of Sunlight

27. Whole

28. Faith

29. The Ticking Clock

30. A Gift Returned

31. Totally and Completely

32. The Great Below

33. Not So Good

34. Restlessness

35. Freedom

36. Nothing to Fear

37. The Terrible Beauty of Being a Teen

38. Mounds

39. A Sign

40. My Prayer

41. Hurley’s Numbers

42. Lost for the Moment

43. Drum Song

44. Head Over Heels

45. Broken

46. 1820

47. A Light Blue Nightmare

48. Babysitter

49. Solitary for Starters

50. A Smell, a Taste, a Touch

51. Hundred-Year-Old Grandmother

52. Strong

53. Soon, My Friend

54. More to Say

55. Messed Up

56. Help

57. Armor

58. The Conversation

59. Surprises

60. Strength

61. Serious

62. A Mess

63. The Sun and the Rainfall

64. What Comes Around Goes Around

65. A Brief Lull

66. Bummer

67. Action

68. The Balloon

69. Stuck

70. The Memories You Try to Bury

71. Uh Huh

72. Weird and Surprising

73. Prayers

74. Freeze

75. Nowhere Fast

76. Magical

77. Midnight

78. Heading In

79. A Familiar Face

80. Protection

81. Sweet Dreams

82. Monster Story

83. Peace

84. Lovely

85. The Third Passage

86. Driver’s Test

87. Start of the Breakdown

88. The Wheel Goes Round and Round

89. What Is Imagined and What Is Real

90. Question Marks or Bite Marks?

91. A Night of Romance and Mystery

92. Tightening

93. Return of the Beast

94. What’s Your Deal?

95. Sweet Dreams Part 2

96. Something Else for the Scrapbook

97. Getting Out

98. This Jerk

99. No Light, No Light

100. Sæglópur (Do You Understand?)

101. End Theme

102. The Most Beautiful Song on Your Playlist

103. Now We Are Free

104. My Son

105. How You Carry On

106. Tick of the Clock

107. One Final Postcard

108. Going Away for Good

109. Rabbit Hole

110. Something I Should’ve Done

111. Fixed

112. Come Alive

113. Alone

114. Promise (1)

115. Promise (2)

116. The Thinner the Air

117. New Surroundings

118. Facing the Grave

119. The Pretty Picture in Front of You

120. Again

121. The End

122. All the Difference

123. Life and Death

124. Is Your Love Strong Enough?

125. Maker and Judge

126. Coming Out Party

127. Well, It’s About Time

128. The Road Never Traveled

129. Waiting to Exhale

130. True Faith

131. Triumph

132. Asleep

133. Just Like Heaven

134. The Living Proof

135. Crystal Clear

136. Solitary

137. All Flowers in Time

138. Tornado

139. Somebody

AfterWords

Three Recommended Playlists

Behind the Book: Say Anything

Acknowledgments

Extras